I can’t believe I went almost a month (again!) without writing. Geez!!! I’ve been so busy over the past few weeks, taking care of a lot of personal things, and I’ve been thinking about writing but I obviously never got around to it!

Let’s see… Anything new with work??? Not really… Same ol’ same. I was recently in Miami shooting for Bang Bros. The weather was absolutely BEAUTIFUL there!!! I went from rain in LA, to a perfect 75 degrees with a slight breeze in Miami. One of my friends that works for Bang, Eddy, picked me up from the airport in his Jeep and we cruised to South Beach for lunch and a little shopping. While wondering around aimlessly in South Beach, I came up on one of those brightly colored ’80s shirts… No surprise… Saying ‘I’m in Miami, Bitch’! Of course, I bought it! I begged Eddy to get clearance for my to wear it in one of my scenes for them… and you bet I did! (I believe it’s for ‘Ass Parade’.)

Estoy en Miami, puta! Hahahahaah! (BAD pic, but whatever!)

While in Miami, I actually got into it with one of the directors out there, Preston Parker. Ha! I’m sure a lot of girls know this guy… He’s the biggest douchebag, man-whore in Miami! lol. Anyway, he was supposed to be shooting all of my scenes, but during the first shoot… Wait, back up… Homeboy was grabbing on me and trying to kiss me the entire time he was doing photos, guess he figured he was entitled to it since I was stupid enough to give it up a time or two in the past and, I don’t know, maybe his long time girlfriend just isn’t enough… But anyway, without my knowing he was rolling camera (that was propped up on a tripod), Preston and I were having an intimate conversation about life and he was using my real name and asking personal questions. I flipped when I found out he’d been filming. He said it was ‘great footage’ because the fans could ’see a different side’ of me. FUCK THAT! I don’t mind getting up close and personal, but that was way over the top! I was furious. Then he tried to go straight into the scene, grabbing on me and shit and I just walked out. I felt so disrespected by someone that I had once had a good friendship with. I was so upset that I cancelled the scene. I was honestly so emotional about the disrespect, but I figured we’d all get over it and go on with our lives and our shoots. But, Preston couldn’t quite understand why I was so upset and decided to act like a bitch the rest of the time, even when I called to apologize for how I handled the situation, so, long story shorter, I doubt we’ll ever talk again. Joey Ray ended up shooting my scenes and I’m happy about that. We shot some great footage out and about in Miami and had a good time hanging out. I also had a long conversation with the owner of the production company out there, apologizing for the ’situation’ and whatnot and luckily he was very understanding (unlike someone!). I hate to cause such a stir, but shit happens.

Anyway, aside from work… I moved! Yay!!! I took a big leap and moved out of LA to Huntington Beach. One of the goals that I set for myself in 2009 was to stop shooting for everyone else and just run my own site in 2010. Moving out of LA has pushed that goal into overdrive. I’ve got some scenes lined up for the rest of February and I’m not booking anything else. I’m not saying I’ll never shooting for someone else, but it’s selective. I still want to do my first anal scene and some other new stuff, but my website is my main focus. I shoot for my site weekly and I very much enjoy it. I work with people that I know and love, I do what I want, I shoot what I want… I’m in control… And I love that. (Obviously, from most of my posts, I do better when I’m in control.) So, yeah, moving and taking a step back to breathe and take some personal time feels SO GOOD! It’s only been 2 weeks, but I feel so much more calm and relaxed. It’s definitely good for my mentality!

I also had a birthday party recently. Well, my birthday isn’t until the 13th of February, but Craven Moorehead and I had some promoters that wanted to throw us our party this year (since we celebrate our birthdays with one big party), so we went with the flow. To sum it up, it was a cluster fuck! lol. We were told we’d have our own tables and bottle, and it turns out we (and the supposed 400+ person guestlist) were all crammed into one SMALL table. Ugh! It was so crowded with people that I didn’t know (that were apparently friends of the promoter) that my own personal friends couldn’t even get to me at my table! It was a disaster! Oh, then my sister left the club and went on a mission to buy a cake (I had no idea), she brought it back, handed it to the waitress to light and bring to ME at the table. Well, as the cake arrived, I was already so upset at the overly crowded table that I didn’t realize it was actually coming for me, but my sisters started singing and got everyone else to sing, but then some jackasses cut them off and called Craven over just assuming it was for him and the dumbass waitress handed the cake to Craven, who had no idea that it had been purchased by my sisters for me! My sisters about tackled the waitress who had nothing to say for herself. Craven was already shitfaced at that point so I didn’t bother… I grabbed my sisters and we left. We headed to Crazy Girl’s with a couple friends, but I ended up in bed at about 2am! RETARDED!!! lol.

When I first arrived at Ecco Lounge, when I was still smiling, before all the madness!

Craven and I chatted a little about how fucking LAME the ‘party’ was and everything, and even apologized about the cake thing, even though it was completely not his fault that we had a shitty waitress. Overall, the wannabe ‘promoters’ that threw the so-called party had absolutely no pull at the club. Me, being a girl and loving birthday parties, and having also thrown myself birthday parties with far more hook-ups, I was expecting an AMAZING birthday party… and I got the complete opposite. It sucked. However, since my birthday isn’t until next Saturday, I’m getting just a few close friends together for a night of dinner, bowling, and bar hopping! I’m only turning 24… It doesn’t have to be that big of a deal, I guess. (But, next year, when I’m halfway to 50, I’m gonna throw a fucking crazy party! lol.)

Oh! Here’s some good news for everyone: at the beginning of this year, I signed a 6-year contract with Topco Sales to release official Jayden Jaymes toys!!! Whoohoo!!! Yesterday was ‘molding day’ and I had my face, my breasts, my ass and my vagina molded. It was quite an interesting experience.

Plaster on my boobies!!! Hahahaha... They look HUGE and saggy here!

The molding goop being poured over my girlie parts.

Getting plaster piled onto my va-jay-jay!

The mold of 'me'. Hahahaha. The molds look funny at this stage!

I have a HUGE ass! Hahahahah!

After molding me, they plaster up the molds... It's such a process!

It’s such an interesting process and it feels really weird! I’m so happy to tell you that the entire process was filmed and sometime over the next month or so, I’ll have a PG rated version on YouTube and the more explicit version on my website so that everyone can share the experience with me. It’s quite entertaining!

Also, for those wondering, my first toy will be available January 2011. (Eleven months and counting! lol.) We’ll know more later, but the first release will either be a blowup doll with my face (from my mold) with a realistic barbell pussy/ass, OR a mid-sized stroker (like a table top piece). Toys will be available in stores all over the US and also available for purchase on my website. Yay!!! I’m so excited!!!

Well, I think that about sums it all up…

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

I sent an email out to a bunch of entertainment industry people (mainstream and adult based) in my address book today, stating that I wanted to try to have a weekly ‘guest blogger’ on my blog, my whole theory being that I constantly rant about the ups and downs of porn and get so much shit for it, however I know that I just doing what everyone else had the nerve to do and the reputation to blow. So, why not allow industry people some time to do what I do and rant about whatever the hell they want?! Fuck it! Talk shit… Be anonymous if you want… I’ll take the heat from it!

I sent a number of text messages today and a couple mass emails, and it only took minutes to get numerous ‘Hell yeah, I’m in!’ responses, and only a couple hours to get my first guest blog.

Again, I’ve told people they can remain anonymous if they’d like, but I’d always put their occupation so that everyone knew where it was coming from. And I would also NEVER alter their blog in any way, shape or form. So, here it is, the first guy to sit down and let his fingers pound away at the keyboard and say whatever the hell it is that was in his head…

Completely exposed, this is retired porn director (Vouyer Media) Donnie Cabo:

“What happened to porn? The booming super duper million dollar business seems to be crumbling before all of our vary eyes, most openly admit that the possibilities of the reason being larger companies like Brazzers had to do with the creating of the infamous tube sites! Others say that its the works of religious fanatics that have finally found a way to put an end to all the smut being created… if you give away free bottled water, people dont pay for it… so…. the theory being that if porn is free no one will pay for membership sites and DVD’s and eventually there will be no money being made to keep the turn style rollin on the production end of it. Seems to be working… yes people are still working, and yes dvd’s are still being made, but just look at the big boys, such as vivid, wicked, and porn directors such as Jim Powers and big time porn stars like Mick Blue. Not more then 2 years ago I offered Mick $700 for a scene and he turned it down stating that he cannot work for less then $800! Fukin Ridiculous I thought, who the hell would not wanna fuk a hot chick for that kind of money when other people in the world are starving to death living in the streets… I dont get it…. but now I guarantee you if I call a Male porn star they will do scenes for half of their normal expected exceptional rate. Wow times have changed, porn sucks now, everyone is struggling, yes I know that some girls are still working weekly and if your one of them and reading this (save your money) times I believe are only going to get tougher and the economy is only going to get worse. Breaking Headling News in case you missed it, Donny Long Officially Retired from Porn- This seals the deal, I guess we can all pack our bags and go home- How does Christian feel about this? Who will he battle with now on the web… I dont blog, ever, and im just really bored, and Ive always had a thing for the sexy Jayden Jaymes so I thought Id share some precious time on her site her with all of you that stop by to read my wacky thoughts. As far as I go I was the guy that never did porn for the money. I actually cared about what I was shooting and all I wanted to ever get was the best sex and realism… realism was to me, most important, too much porn was fake, scripted, planned, guess thats why its hard for me to watch porn that seems fake… like films from wicked and vivid. I was always into the more gonzo style hey whats your name lets fuk porn… and I give it up to the guys that can do the scenes without having to stick a needle in their dick. If its that tough I walk… Bad day… walk…. not walk to the bathroom and inject! crazy shit, I have seen some crazy shit in the last thirteen years. Fuk, im going to miss alot of shit and i have a lot of great memories… alot of crazy ones too, You cant be a porn director and date a porn star and not! There were some really great days and of course some really bad days, but You try to forget the bad ones and put them behind you… Now for the future, what happens to the Jim Powers and the Vivid and Wicked and Porn Stars, where will they be in ten years? Twenty years? What will happen the year that possibly AVN is no longer with us? Will everyone still gather at circle bar at the Venetian that first week of January even if there is no show? I know people that went to Vegas this year, but did not go to the show or awards but only to attend the parties, so I can definently see endless possiblities of a 20 year reunion at the circle bar in 2030! We all know people that did not make it to the end of the year, unfortunately, that would have been at AVN, who knows maybe Michael Jackson would have shown up with Brittany Murphy! Not very probable but yet unfortunate. Life is short and your only guaranteed 2 things in life, and porn is not one of them. So I will leave you all with a question to ask yourselves… What has porn done for you? I will answer this question for you all from my perspective. . . for me porn has gotten me off like a bizzilion times, it has made me notice and appreciate a good manicure on a woman, its helped me to better understand what is real and whats not, I can better understand the way people feel and express themselves, its helped me to understand how important it is to be there for your kids if you have them one day, and most of all its helped me to appreciate family. There are friends that I have had in this business since 1997 and I consider them family. I dont judge people and I hope you dont judge me, try to get to know someone before you decide your final opinion of them and everyone Happy New Year, if you walking around life miserable then make some changes because its not the world that hates you, its you that hates the world! And Shout out to Sexy Jayden Jaymes. Love Ya!”

Donnie (I know you by your real name and prefer that, by the way!), thanks for doing that! My personal opinion – The industry’s going down the drain! I ran into Gia Paloma the other day and she straight asked me, “Do you think porn’s going to be around in 5 years?” We both gave each other the same look of confusion… “I doubt it… At least not like it is today… And definitely not like it was just 3 years ago when I first got in…”

Things are changing. 95% of the girls are escorts and making their money and shooting scenes because it’s extra money. What about someone like me? Or one of my best friends, Phoenix Marie? We don’t escort. We’re both considered solid performers, yet our schedules are wide open apart from a few scenes a month. And since we don’t escort, we don’t have additional income coming in. So what do we do? At what point do we get another job? At what point to you leave and hope the world can take you seriously as a working American while dealing with the wrath of ‘porn people’ looking down upon you for wanting to get another job because they see it as you thinking you’re better than them, when in fact we’re ALL struggling?!?!?! It’s a fucked up situation and it fucking sucks.

(Porn biz peeps – Contact me if you would like to submit a guest blog.)

It’s the first blog of the new year! And sorry it’s taken so long… I’ve been in Vegas pretty much since December 30th to celebrate the new year, only going home for 2 days, and returned for the AVN Adult Entertainment Expo! To be honest… I’m fucking tired of Vegas!!! lol. Sadly, I have to go back on Friday, just for the day, to shoot a scene for Brazzers.

So… About my trips… Let’s see… AMAZING! lol. Phoenix Marie and I decided to take a last minute trip to Vegas to bring in the new year. She has some connections with hotels and hookups, and I have a few local friends along with a lot of friends visiting because of UFC, so we knew we’d be taken care of and have a lot of fun!

I have so many pictures, so I’m gonna keep it short. We were invited, last minute, to the first ever Fighters Only Magazine World MMA Awards show on the 30th. Apparently Cole Miller, a UFC fighter, was unaware of the event all together, so my friend Tracy Lee (www.CombatLifestyle.com) put us in contact with each other so he didn’t have to go alone, being that I know a lot of UFC people anyway and I’m a HUGE MMA buff. 

The awards show was okay. I think it’ll be a lot better next year. To be completely honest, and I even told my buddy SkySkrape this, a lot of the presenters completely lacked personality. It was very dry, like they were reading directly from the monitor. But the show itself was good. They also did a little tribute to Charles “Mask” Lewis which had me in tears! (I didn’t know him personally, but I know his partners and, just from hearing amazing things from them, I felt so touched.) When the monitor showed my friends crying, I lost it! And when Phoenix saw me crying, she started crying. We were a mess!

After the awards show, Cole, Phoenix and I headed to Mr. Lucky’s in the HardRock to wait for everyone to escape the madness. Soon enough, we were joined by EVERYONE! SkySkrape came and sat with us, Punkass came by for a minute, Tracy joined us with a bunch of friends, a couple more fighters, and even Quinton Aaron, who played Michael Oher in the recent movie, ‘The Blind Side’. After sitting, eating, drinking, and chatting for about 2 hours, we danced at Wasted Space for about 30 minutes, then Phoenix and I called it an early night.

Phoenix, Tracy and I at Mr. Lucky's at the HardRock Hotel.

Phoenix, Me, Cole Miller and Tracy Lee.

At Mr. Lucky's...

Quinton Aaron and all of us girlies. (He's so sweet!)

The next night, New Year’s Eve, Phoenix and I went to XS with Tracy Lee and her sister Jaimee after sushi. We met up with David Williams, a professional poker player. He had a crazy table going with friends just throwing money into the HUGE dancing crowd, and Nikki Hilton and her friends were partying at the table next to us. We jumped around from David’s table to James McSweeney and crew’s table, making new friends. The TapouT guys also arrived shortly after midnight, got a table and partied with the rest of us.

Arriving at XS on NYE.

With David Williams and Tracy Lee at XS.

I left XS at about 3am, after ‘losing’ Phoenix a few hours before. I went back to my room to put on some comfy clothes, then headed to my ‘friend’s’ room at the HardRock and brought in the new year with a bang… literally! lol.

(By the way… You’ll never see another pic of me in my favorite starry scarf! I’m so sad!!! It finally went back to it’s rightful owner, who stole it off me while at XS, but gave me another one of his instead. The scarf was very sentimental to him, so I don’t mind too much… I kept good care of it for him these last 8 months!)

The rest of our NYE getaway was a bunch of partying. I won’t give anymore specifics of who we dined and partied with because we all know how much drama starts from that! God forbid Jayden Jaymes be friends with ‘known people’, right? lol. Hey… I’m a fun person, I make friends and have a good time! Just because I party with some “celebs” doesn’t mean I fuck ‘em!

Overall, Phoenix and I had an amazing time in Vegas together! We went home for a whopping 48 hours and both had to head back to sign at the Adult Expo.

Phoenix and I also managed to film some of our trip, and I’ve posted 4 parts on YouTube:

Part 1 – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbiOMHbK4Zo  

Part 2 – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nosT6Yvlb_g  

Part 3 – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFMQAtkaFyg  

Part 4 – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9AXU-IrT66g 

I drove back to Vegas on Wednesday, the 6th to sign at the Jules Jordan/Brazzers booth all four days of the convention. Jules is a super nice guy! He’s knows I’m a total bitch, but he also know that all he has to do is put his hands around my neck and choke me and I’m fine! lol.

Talking about the convention isn’t too exciting, so I’ll stay away from that. However, I will say one thing, and I already posted this on Twitter, but I really think that Axe (and everyone!) could benefit from sponsoring the AEE and handing out free body spray at the door. I’m sorry, I love my fans and I know that they’re the number one reason that keeps me working, but having that many people in one room, walking around, sweating, burping, farting, being excited and nervous all at once, it gets pretty fucking stinky in there! The combination of everyone’s BO and breath isn’t very pleasant! lol. I’m not picking on anyone in particular… it’s everyone! It’s just gross being in a room with no windows to let in fresh air. (OMG! But I will mention this: one guy put his arm around me to take a picture and left a wet spot on my shoulder from his armpit! No joke! Seriously… A spot on my shirt! LMAO!) They need to crack the doors in that joint next year!

For the first time in the 4 years I’ve been going to the AEE, I actually went out EVERY night! I didn’t party and drink every night, but I did go out to dinners and I did hit up some bars/clubs. I got to party with my friends Mai and Oren for once! I was so happy! (They are a married couple that shoot some of my website content for me.) They’re so awesome!!! I also introduced them to a few of my UFC friends who were still there are partying with us, and even Tracy who came out with us before she headed up North for the WEC. Here’s a pics from my nights out:

Me, Chris (my agent) and Phoenix at the Venetian Circle Bar.

Me and the girlies at XS.

Me and Mai getting a bit tipsy at XS.

Me and James McSweeney, my new buddy. (He says he's adopted me as a little sis, so this is now my big bro!)

Lynda and I ran into our old friend Tyson Griffin!!!

Having lunch with my buddy Derrick Piece at the Grand Lux Cafe.

As for the AVN Awards show… I had bought a dress and everything, and was so excited about going, but I ended up running into some drama, threw my typical bitch-fit in front of everyone, and just said ‘fuck it’ and told everyone to fuck off and I didn’t go. Instead, I spent the night partying with my best friend Craven Moorehead, who I hadn’t seen in about a month.

Plus side… I won an award! Well, I played a small part in it! lol. I’m a 2010 AVN ‘Best Group Sex Scene’ winner for the 12-person orgy scene in Wicked’s 2040! Yay!!! I was also presented with a plaque by www.xcritic.com for being a ‘Must-See Girl of 2010′.

I also received some fun stuff from some fans, like a fucking rockin’ scarf (scarves are my thing! lol.), some cool little nicknacks, some clothes, and even some beautiful jewelry! I really appreciate gifts from my fans… it makes me feel like I’m making them so happy and they want to return the favor. It’s great. I love it.

Well, after such a fun and busy start to my 2010, I just got home last night and I’m still so exhausted! I’ve got so much laundry to do, bills to write out, cleaning to do, errands to run, people to see, etc.

OH! Almost forgot… I signed a contract today for the HUGE deal I’ve been working on!!! I can’t share the details yet, but I’m sure their press release will come soon and I’ll make sure to share the news then! I’m so excited!!!

Until next time… Take care everyone!!!!!!!!

Hmm… No response from the jackass from my last post… Oh well! lol.

Well, the holidays are DONE!!!!!!! Thank God!!! I love the holidays and all the family time and everything, but I HATE the food!!! There’s way too much eating being done throughout Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I guess it officially starts with all of the damn Halloween candy! Geez! I’m DONE with it!!! Gotta go back home to where there’s no food in the house! There’s a reason I don’t go grocery shopping… I don’t need to eat a bunch of JUNK! When you’re bored, you eat. So, if I’m sitting at home and get bored/hungry, I purposely don’t have snack foods! Gotta get back on track!

I’m still at my parents’ house, debating on what time I should hit the road. It’s a good two hour drive home, but I’m sure there will be PLENTY of holiday traffic! And frankly, my dog’s been eating a lot of leftovers and I really don’t want to be stuck in the car for 4 hours in traffic, smelling her farts the whole way home! No thank you! lol. As bad as I want to get home, I think I’ll wait it out until tonight… and try to not snack on all the cookies and shit that are in this house!!! Grrrrr!!!! Hahaahahah!!!

Anyway, exciting news: Little Miss Phoenix Marie and I have decided that we both desperately need a little mini-vacation to clear our minds and get out of the stress of work and LA, so we’ve booked a room in Las Vegas for the celebration of the incoming of 2010… New Year’s Fuckin’ Eve in VEGAS!!!!!!! Have you guys ever seen ‘The Hangover’… Oh, yeah… I plan on US being THEM! lol. We’re both not big drinkers, but we’ve decided to let the guards down COMPLETELY and enjoy ourselves to the fucking max. We’ve got our room from the 30th until the 3rd and I highly doubt we’ll be spending much time in there! I’m so fucking excited, y’all have no idea!!! I keep texting her about it. I’m just so long overdue for some space to let myself go and forget about everything in my life. The dog’s all booked at the daycare, the bills are paid, and I’m ready!!!!!! I’ve called all of my Vegas friends (locals, club promoters, fighters, etc…. Hey, it’s UFC 108, too! My fighter friends will be there!!! Yay!!!!) and we’re all set to get HOOKED UP wherever we want to go! Yippie!!!!!

Hahahahahaha…

And that’s not the only Vegas trip we’ve got planned… Don’t forget about the Adult Entertainment Convention coming up the 7th through the 10th! I’ll be back home in LA for 48 hours before me and my girlfriend/makeup artist Lynda take off to Vegas on the 6th to settle in my room for the LONG but FUN weekend of meeting fans, doing signings, interviews, and kicking up my feet in pain from my heels at the end of every day! lol. And the awards show is Saturday night! Yay!!! As much as the rumors fly about the negative politics of the AVNs, I am up for 4 awards: Best Tease Performance (Curvy Girls 4, Elegant Angel), Best All Girl Three Way (Sweet Cheeks 11, Anabolic), Best Orgy Scene (2040, Wicked) and Best New Web Starlet (www.JaydenJaymesXXX.com). Do I think I’ll win any? Yeah… The Best Orgy Scene, and only because Wicked spends lots of money through AVN. lol. But honestly, I don’t think it’s something that ALL OF US will go up and accept, so I’ll stay in my seat more than likely! However, it is nice to receive a nomination because of my personal website! Makes me feel like some of my hard work has been recognized. And also, with that tease scene, I was happy with the nomination. Sam No said to me right after we shot all of it: “That was the HOTTEST tease I’ve ever shot!” I texted her right after I saw that nom and she was just as excited as I was! Yay!!! Who knows… Maybe, magically, I’ll win something.

Well, I’m gonna get back to my family and the last couple of hours hanging out with them before I head back home. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and I hope the everyone has a fun/safe/wild/crazy/EVERYTHING new year!!! We’ll have cameras with us in Vegas, so I’ll definitely be posting pictures! Hehehehe.

I love the praise I get for my blog, especially from industry professionals. And I LOVE reading comments and seeing the outsider opinions, good, bad, positive and negative. However, my all time FAVORITE comments are those like the following that was just posted:

“I can’t believe you deleted my last post, you whore. 

I’ll give you some worldy advice. You’re pretty fucking fat and i’d say your time in porn is fairly limited ‘cos the minute you get to late-20’s you’ll be WAY too fat, you’ll have a pussy like a wizard’s sleeve and there’ll be a younger, thinner video-prostitute to take your place.

Oh, and you’re family are all ASHAMED of you. You dirty, worthless WHORE.

Stop whining like above and get some self respect and a proper fucking job.”

LMFAO!!!

First off, this guy is crying over the fact that I deleted his first comment, which is just fucking hilarious! Considering I’m such a “worthless whore”, this guy is pretty damn concerned about the fact that I think his comments are pretty worthless, and actually CAME BACK and looked at my site AGAIN and did enough research to find that I didn’t post his comment! Wow… can we say “obsession”?! lol.

I usually don’t give people like this any attention because it’s just that… they want attention… attention from a “worthless whore”! Hahahahaah! Normally, when someone truly thinks so low of someone, they completely ignore them. Obviously, I’ve become a fascination to this person and it’s quite intriguing! I get a total kick out of it because I KNOW this guy is not only concerned with what I think of him, but he’s totally Google-ing me (you know, to look at my ‘fat’ body) and checking out every single aspect of porn that I’ve ever been involved with.

Again… LMFAO!!!

Dude, if you’re so engulfed with, wrapped up in, and concerned with a “worthless whore”, YOU might want to rethink YOUR life and stop obsessing about mine. That goes to anyone who has anything negative to say. No one’s forcing you to read my blog or watch my scenes. If you don’t like it/me, move on with your life! Geez! (And I’M labeled as the stupid one… Ha!)

On a serious note… My fans mean a lot to me. Obviously, y’all are the ones that keep me working. However, as much as I like to let everyone in on some of the daily ins and outs, highs and lows of the business and let you in on some aspects of my personal life, you guys only see what I let you. There’s obviously a great deal of me, mind, body and soul, that you guys don’t see… That a lot of people don’t see… This (porn, my site, my blog, etc.) is just a peace of me that I’ll someday outgrow and it will become nonexistent in my daily activities. Although porn will always be a small part of my life that some people will never look past nor let me move on from, I am not ashamed of my life or my decisions, nor is my family, and I know (and those who know me personally know) who I am inside and as a person and I don’t need the approval of anyone to justify anything.

Anyway, I’m leaving tomorrow and heading to my parents’ place for the rest of the week to celebrate the holiday. We’re a very close family and I’m looking forward to yet another fabulous holiday with the family. I hope everyone has a great holiday.

I wasn’t going to blog about this because so many people asked me not to because of the so-called ’stature’ of this company, but I’m Jayden Jaymes… I don’t give a FUCK! lol. But seriously, I got an email from my old agent, Derek, at LA Direct Models that has totally persuaded me to let it be known.

First off, just so everyone knows, I HATE Derek very much. He was my agent for only a year. I think he’s the meanest, most heartless, rudest, biggest douche in this industry. Seriously, I was screaming at this person on the phone in the middle of the Dallas airport, going off about how he has such a horrible soul. He’s just not a nice guy. Well, I suppose he COULD be outside of the adult industry, and I understand that he puts up with a bunch of air-headed, drug addicted whores every single day and that can make you crazy, but I don’t think he realized that I had a brain when I signed up with his agency a couple years ago. He makes these poor girls believe that he owns them, he threatens them with work and money, and he’s not honest. You would never understand the amount of times I’ve heard from girls, “I work for Derek.” or “I don’t want Derek to fire me.” or whatever. Ummm, hello?!?!?! Bitch, who pays who here??? YOU pay HIM right??? HE works for YOU!!! He’s an agent, he handles your bookings and that’s it! It goes to show you how stupid girls are and how persuasive he can be. But anyway, I never put up with that… and I wouldn’t doubt if I was the only girl ever to yell that at him in his office.

Moving on…

Yesterday, I was supposed to shoot for Vivid. My call time was 3:00pm and I was shooting a boy/girl/girl scene with Mick Blue and Vivid’s newest contract girl Lia. After reading through all of my shoot information and scanning the script, the wardrobe that I was told to bring didn’t really match up with the script, so I texted the director to see if he had anything specific in mind. He gave me some ideas, then said, “You also need to do a strip tease for mobile and you can’t wear thongs for that.” Exactly what went through my head: “Wait! I’m getting paid $300 less than my usually rate and now they want me to do more work for them?!?!?” 

Remember when I had a huge problem with The Erotic Networks and them wanting to shoot all kinds of content and not compensate me for it? Well, it’s just about the same deal here. With most of these big companies your day is pretty much this: Hair/Makeup, Pretty-Girl Stills, Dialogue, Hardcore/Softcore Stills, Hardcore Scene, Softcore Scene, the Popshot and then you go home. It’s the same with shooting for a company like Brazzers, minus the softcore. Companies will either have a script and do a bunch of dialogue, or they’ll shoot a tease (i.e. rub oil all over your tits and ass and tease the camera for a few minutes) and get right into the sex. So, not only was I supposed to do all this normal stuff for Vivid for less than my usual rate (which, I’ll admit, is still a little higher than most girls), but they now wanted me to shoot a 15 minute strip tease, too! Not only that, for a MOBILE APPLICATION… It wasn’t even part of the scene! It’s for a totally different thing!!! HELL NO!!!

I got right on the phone with my agent and explained the situation. I guess when he called the production manager, he said he had no idea what I was talking about as far as the mobile app thing and the tease was for the beginning of the DVD. Ha! Yeah, right! It took a few phone calls, but I guess they finally admitted it was for a mobile application.

I know it sounds silly, and most people would probably think, ‘why wouldn’t you just shut up and do it! You’re getting naked anyway, just suck it up and do the strip tease for 15 minutes and get over it!’. My problem was that Vivid was not only unable to pay me my full rate so they were already low-balling me, but now they were trying to squeeze in more content, not pay me for it, but make money off of it themselves. I understand that the state of the economy is bad and everyone is hurting, but I have to draw the line somewhere. I know that Vivid is fully capable of paying my full rate (it was only an additional $300!), so when they tried to pull that, I was pissed. All I wanted was an additional $100. I know that it’s just $100 and probably not worth the whole situation, but it’s the principle of it. Too many people are trying to get freebies from girls and, sadly, most girls, once on set, would be too afraid to say anything because (*sarcastic gasp*) IT’S VIVID, so they do it anyway.

Well, Vivid ended up canceling my scene. The production manager first told my agent, ‘She doesn’t have to do it if she doesn’t want to’, but then turned around and just didn’t want me there. Oh, and then someone actually brought up my blog and didn’t want me to go and talk about them. OMG! I’m sorry, but I say this to everyone who gets mad over my blog… DON’T DO ANYTHING THAT’S GONNA GET YOU IN IT! Be straight up with me and don’t piss me off. I just told my agent last night: Those who get mad at my blog are getting mad because it’s true and now they’re exposed! Though shit!

I’ve said this before, but I really wish other girls would learn to stand up for themselves and use their brains and only do what their agent has explained to them as far as their scene goes. ANYTHING outside the norm should not be done without greater compensation. Instead, girls are too fucking stupid and scared, then the bitch Jayden Jaymes comes to set and suddenly all hell breaks loose and my label as a fucking cunt grows… all because I know what’s right and what’s wrong!

I don’t come on her and rant about companies because I want to piss people off and be completely blackballed from this business. I do it because it needs to be exposed to others within the industry so they can see what’s going on!

That being said, back to the whole Derek thing…

As much as Derek and I have had our issues in the past, it put a BIG smile on my face to receive the following email from him this morning, actually backing me up! For a man like Derek to side with me in a situation like this, I again feel like I’m doing something right. Here’s what he had to say:

“Jayden

Whatever differences we have between each other – please set them aside for a moment,

Twice now – it has come to my attention that you have had issues on set where producers have asked you to shoot additional content for no compensation, and you have refused, and then made the issues public,

The Erotic Networks and now Vivid,

In both cases we at Direct Models learned of this – thanks to your whistle blowing and on both occasions we were not previously aware of it,

In the first case – this has now resulted in our models being compensated fairly for the work that is being asked of them from Erotic Networks.

 In the second I don’t know what the outcome will be - since I am only told now, that Vivid has been asking models for several months to shoot mobile content, something they had never told us – (nor had any model).  So this will be discussed in the next few days,

I don’t know whether other models just don’t understand they should only do what they have been booked for, or lack the chutzpah to blow the whistle when they are coerced to do so.

Whichever it is – you are right to do so – and I wanted to tell you so.

So thanks for doing it because it benefits all models and agents to know when this is taking place,

Regards,

Derek”

I know that Derek or someone from his office is going to read this and probably be a little hurt that I put everything on blast, but I felt a great need to do so. Derek and I do not get along, obviously. But, in such a situation, it felt so good to hear that I’m in the right from someone I have such issues with. And also, hopefully other girls read this and Derek’s email to me and it somehow triggers something in their little brains and they start standing up for themselves. That’s the whole point behind me putting companies on blast like that! IT’S NOT FAIR!!!

On another note, I don’t think badly of Vivid (or the Erotic Networks, or any company that has tried to pull something like this). Everyone screws up. I just hope that it’s something that is not used against me, or even used against them. But, it is something that needs to be handled correctly and fixed! I had never shot for Vivid before and I was actually a little excited to go to set and prove to everyone that I’m not the big bitch that they’ve all heard about, but, as luck would have it, something happens and that strong side of me comes up and I have to handle the situation properly. Apparently the production managed already told my agent that he’d re-book me for a movie early next year and get me my full rate… I hope so… I think that having a good day on set for Vivid would mend the situation for both of us.

Anyway, that’s the latest drama. Ready for some positive stuff now??? lol. I went to dinner with Jew Hefner last night, who’s been in the business (behind the scenes) for YEARS now, and he has just partnered up with my agent and now he has to deal with me DAILY! Hahahah! Just kidding! Anyway, I hadn’t seen him in a long time, and after yesterday’s drama, we decided to met for dinner. We had some great chicken marsala at Buca de Beppo in Encino, then went to the Sherman Oaks Galleria to see Avatar, where we ran into Sophie Dee and her man Lee. To our surprise, we were all seeing the same movie! But, they got their tickets far enough in advance to reserve the good seats, while Jew and I were in the second row, all to way to the right of the screen. Regardless, it was an AMAZING movie! SciFi movie of the year, for sure! I absolutely LOVED it!!! Afterward, Jew kept talking about my blog so I told him I’d mention him so he’d stop feeling left out. lol. Maybe this just made his day! Hahahahahahaha! He’s my favorite Jew!

Well, now that it’s noon on a Sunday, I need to get my ass in the shower! I’ve got a housewarming/Xmas party to attend at my friends Mai and Oren’s house. I’m so excited! They actually shoot some of my website content for me (the more glamour-y stuff), but I haven’t seen either of them in a few weeks. I’m sooooooo ready for some good food (they’re both great chefs!) and lots of wine! Heheheheh.

Have a great afternoon everyone!!!

Pet peeve of the day:

Every time I post something on myspace or twitter about hanging out with my family, my sisters, my nephew, my brother, etc., I always get a few douche-bags that say shit like, “Do your parents watch your porn?” “Does your brother watch you and jerk off to you?” “Do you and your sister get it on?”

Are you fucking kidding me??? I’m sorry, I may do porn, but these people that say this shit are far more fucked up than I am! Do you fuck your sister??? Do your parents watch you have sex??? NO! So why the hell would you think shit like that goes on in my family??? What I do is a JOB and that’s all… I go home and I get on with my NORMAL life!!! I’m fully capable of shutting off ‘Jayden Jaymes’ and just being me. I can enjoy dinner with my family and not talk about work or sex. We’re regular, everyday people. I just don’t get it… Not everyone is as fucked in the head as these fudge-packers that are so indecent as to even think of this shit! It’s fucking disgusting!

It also kinda reminds me of when there were rumors about me and a certain UFC fighter and also about me and a certain NFL QB… People were saying the most retarded comments like, “How could you date a girl that takes 10 big, black dicks at a time everyday?”

LMFAO!!! Seriously??? Okay, first, before you start talking shit, do a little research. I’d LOVE to see this scene with me apparently taking on 10 dudes at once! And second… again, you are more fucked up that I am just for the fact that you even know that kind of porn exists because apparently YOU’RE the one watching it! That’s some kinky shit… Shit that I’ve never done… Not even close to!

I just find it very funny how quick some people are to judge others. I think that someone so judgmental and closed minded has far more of a bad soul than someone like me who lives there life day to day, enjoying themselves, being happy, meeting (and not judging!) new people, doing charity work, spending time with family as often as possible, and who just so happens to get paid to participate in adult films.

I spent the majority of my Saturday morning and afternoon at my girlfriend Lynda’s place, borrowing her over to bake a couple pies for some friends at a local fire house. Since my oven is broken (I have no idea what’s up, but it’s too hot! I burned a pie that takes 50 minutes to bake in 10 minutes!!!) and I had promised a special treat, I took over Lynda’s kitchen.

I brought my dog with my over there so she could see her little doggie boyfriend, Tito. (He’s a Chihuahua… My girl’s a Pitt!) They played all day and fought over a little unicorn toy, and I managed to bake two chocolate chip cookie dough cheesecakes that I delivered to a Studio City fire house with Ivan when we dropped off all of the donations that we collected the other night during our charity event. All of the sexy firefighters LOVED the pies and were so very grateful for all of the donations!

Back to Lynda’s house… While have a little girl talk, Lynda received a phone call from an old friend… Long story short, this friend had two GOOD tickets to the Raiders games that were going to go to waste, so Lynda jumped on the opportunity to take them off her hands! Me, not being the biggest football fan, told her to go ahead and invite someone else that would appreciate it more, but I guess everyone else was busy because I was invited! Spontaneous road trip to Oakland, anyone???

So the plan was for me to go home, pack a little overnight bag, take my dog to the doggie day care people, make my delivery of goods to the fire house, spend the night at Lynda’s, and be out of the house EARLY to get to the game, then head home afterwards.

Well, after running around with chores, and then having dinner with Ivan after dropping off the donations and Lynda watch the UFC fights at a friend’s house, we met back and her place and were both far from tired. So… what else were we to do… We hit the road… Stopping for some caffeine, of course!

5 Hour Energy for the 5 hour drive!

The drive up to Oakland seemed to take FOREVER!!! But, it was indeed 5 hours! We pulled into a Marriott hotel at about 4:30am, got a room so we could sleep for a few hours, and were up at 11am.

Kickoff was at 1:05, I believe, and we walked in just as the game started. Our seats were GREAT! We were behind one of the goal posts, six rows back. GREAT view! 

The view from our seats: Raiders vs. RedSkins

Me and Lynda look like we're 300 pounds each, trying to keep warm with all of our layers!!!

Go Raiders!

I had never been to a football game before this, and I had heard that the Raiders fans were among the craziest, but I had a great time! I will say this though: I don’t get why people get all up in each others faces, screaming that their team is better than the other. Who cares?! Yeah, cool, pick a team, learn it, live it, love it. But everyone is entitled to their opinion… There’s no need to fight because someone doesn’t see it the way you do! lol. Crazy people! 

And the major downside of the day: RAIN!!! I can handle a little rain… but it was SO COLD up there in Oakland!!! OMG!!! Our jeans were SOAKED and our toes were so numb!!! I was enjoying the live action, but I was MISERABLE!!!

Oh, and while at the game, I got a text from my party promoter guy in Canada and he wants to bring me out to host an event next month! Yay!!! However, he was looking to get one of my friends as well, which is cool, but one of my mainstream friends that I’ve already had some drama with (because people think we’re dating but we’re not and we’re just friends, etc.). I wanna do the party… And I know this person would love to do the party… But I don’t know if it’s gonna happen for BOTH OF US! But I’ll keep you posted!

Anyway, after the game, we hit up a local BBQ restaurant to get some food and, yes, watch ANOTHER football game! lol. Lynda is a HUGE Eagles fan (hence the past drama of us meeting her fav QB in Vegas! LMAO!!!) The food at this place was AMAZING!!! Down-home cookin’ – BBQ, cornbread, potatoes, greens, coleslaw.. OH MY GOD!!! Even worse, we had dessert!!! But it was too good to pass up! And after eating, we headed in to the lounge area of the restaurant to finish the game. We got lucky with this place… the lounge had couches!!! I slept a little and Lynda watched the game.

We headed home around 8:30 and, after dropping Lynda off at home, I was in bed by 2am. 

I was up at 9am this morning for a doctor appointment and to run a couple errands. And tomorrow I’m off to Oakland, again, but this time I’m flying! I’ll be shooting for Kink.com for the first time ever. I’m actually quite nervous! I’m not a fan out being tied up, but we’re just shooting some solo stuff and they said it’s nothing extravagant. Thank God! I’m okay with a little bondage, but I don’t like any pain infliction. Plus, I’m claustrophobic, so ropes and gags make me freak out a little. They’ve assured me that I’ll be in complete control so I’m feeling a little better about it. It’ll be a good experience… and I’ll let you know how it goes!

Here’s a couple choice pics from the charity event/toy drive the other night:

Ivan and I being goofy...

Jesse, Me and Ivan...

Candid!!! Me and Jesse talking while Ivan shoots us...

The three of us posing with some of the toys that were donated.

Shyla Stylez

Nikki Sexx

For more pics, visit HERE.

And thanks again to everyone that came out to join us, and and even bigger thank you to those that donated!!!

I’m on a freakin’ roll with all of the charity that I’ve been doing this holiday season!!! But, after the funk that I was in and my goal to start guiding myself in order to better myself, I needed to put my focus into something other than just sex! And what better way than to collect toys and nonperishable foods for the children and families in need?!?!?

My goofy ass posing with some of the donations we collected throughout the night.

Last night I hosted a party at Clear in Studio City with my goofy partner in crime, Ivan, and one of my business partners, Jesse. I mentioned to Ivan a couple months ago that I wanted to a charity drive with him, then the one came up at the bowling alley, too. So anyway, the three of us did what we do best and promoted this party like crazy! No hiring of any PR guys (who, frankly, are a fucking joke in this business if you ask me!), no mainstream anything… Just us telling people! And the word spread like fire!!! We had an amazing turnout of porn girls, other industry faces, photographers, and an amazing amount of supportive fans and other civilians. I’d say that 90% of the people that walked through that door had toys or canned goods in their hands!

I’m sorry… It’s totally eating me up inside… Back to the PR guy thing: It’s not in any way, shape, or form a difficult process to have a story put up on any site in this busniess. AVN, XBIZ, TheFloatingWorld, LukeIsBack, whatever be your fancy. If you can’t throw together a couple complete sentences about whatever it is that you’re doing/want to promote and email it to these people yourself… You know, I was gonna say something else, but fuck it… You fucking belong in this business! Go piss away $1000 a month to have some guy write a few phrases about you… Then get your ass up on the bar and fuck a chick in front of everyone like the classless whores that were at my party last night! That $1000 you’re handing out is $1000 less in blow that you’re shoving up your nose.

(Hell, I’m gonna get PLENTY of press of just that one paragraph right there… More than any girl’s gotten from paying a ‘PR Guy’ to do it for her!)

Anyway, back to my party… So, yeah… There were girls getting naked and totally muff-diving on the bar top! WOW!!! I don’t know one of there names, but we’ll just call her Blondie. But the other… No surprise here… was Elena Heiress. I’ve met Elena a few times, and she’s a super nice girl… But she’s got a little addiction to attention. That girl runs around everywhere with her clothes off, grabbing on dudes and chicks, making out with random people… and sucking on random clits on top of bars for EVERYONE to see, take pictures of, and videotape… for FREE! Granted, this is the same girl that I worked with a while back in Miami that I was told “has a very particular ‘yes list’ and doesn’t work with just anyone!” So… You won’t do one guy because you fear he might be dirty because you don’t know his home life… Bitch! You’re contracting herpe-gono-syphil-aids on the fucking bar RIGHT NOW! LMFAO!!!!! I just don’t get it. (But hey… Ivan managed to get A LOT of it on video and you best believe I will be using it!)

Everyone was looking back at me, while I’m sitting in a corner in my Ugg boots and trucker hat, texting and chewing on a fucking straw, giving me the head nod and a thumbs up: Jayden Jaymes sure knows how to throw a party!!! It was all good, I guess… some of my friends, like some guys from SubNoize Records, had never quite been to a party like this one! Hell, even one of my good friends got a blowjob in the bathroom! High-fucking-five, bro!

You know, for the most part, I love my job. But I ask this all the time and everyone that knows me can vouch for it, but when did this ‘job’ stop being a ‘job’ and become THIS??? I was saying last night, “It’s one thing to earn a living by having sex on camera… But, when you’re in public, have a little bit of self control and some class!” Have a drink, makeout with your girlfriend, cool… But fucking a chick on a bar… OMG!!! It’s disgusting! No one, no matter what industry you’re in, on one likes to take work home with them. It’s not healthy. Apparently porn girls missed the memo! Oh wait… What am I talking about… They’re porn girls… THEY DON’T KNOW ANY BETTER! Shit, I always forget! I always think that they’re the whores on my turf… When really I’m the brains on their turf!

Oh… I also saw a few people (i.e. agents!) try to sneak some girls into the club last night an get thrown out because of no ID or a bad fake ID… I’ve got nothing to say to that but: HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! Seriously, it’s a CLUB that serves ALCOHOL! Let’s all use our brains (hell, if all of them put theirs together, they might equal one): YOU’RE GONNA NEED ID!!!!!!! 

Overall, it was a great night and it kept me very much entertained! And the fact that little cutie Gia Jordan approached me and gave me praises about my blog and told me how much some others at AVN love my blog, it gives me the strength to lay it on think again. To people that are ‘normal’, it makes sense. I state the facts and make fun of all the bullshit. Those that are getting offended are the ones that fit right into my sleeze-stories! What the fuck to I care what people think anymore??? Remember all the publicity bullshit I was talking about… I get plenty of it doing what I do best! Heheheheheheheh!

On to more positive stuff… I don’t have any pictures yet, other than the couple I took with my cell phone, but I’m sure I’ll be getting an insane amount of pictures over the next couple of days as the photographers upload all of theirs and I will be posting them for you!!! Also, Ivan and I will be taking all of our collected goods to a local fire house (one that a friend of mine works at), and I plan on baking the boys a cake and delivering everything in a sexy Santa suit! Don’t worry… I’ll film it all!!! See… I can do charity work and be a little sexy at the same time!!!

Oh… and Merry Christmas everyone!!! (Watch out for this guy sneaking into your house on Christmas Eve!!!

Hahahahahahahah!!!!