Okay, crazy, kinda weird story for ya…

I was meeting my videographer for sushi tonight at our normal spot. I arrived a couple minutes before he did, so I sat at out usual table… and he came strolling in within 2 minutes…

As he walks in, from across the restaurant I hear a girl, “Oh my God, it’s a small world”, and she comes over and gives Ivan a hug. I looked, but I didn’t recognize her. Ivan turned to me and said, “Hey, it’s ********* ******!!! Hey, do you know Jayden?” She straight rolled her eyes and turned her head and said, “Yeah, be she doesn’t care for me…”

Let me see if I can map out the conversation for you…

Jayden – “Wait… What?!” (In shock at the comment)

Ivan – “Really? She’s always spoken very highly of you…”

********* – “Really?! Well, she likes to write a lot of shit about me on FreeOnes!”

Jayden – “What?! I’m sorry… What?!” (I’m so confused at this point)

********* – “Oh yeah! Fans have told me all about it.”

Jayden – “I’m sorry… I don’t recall…”

********* – “Well, unless someone hacked into your account and talked shit about me…”

Ivan – (again) “No, she’s always spoken highly of you!”

Jayden – “Yeah, wait, I’m curious now…”

(She had been waiting on a takeout order and was handed her food and was ready to leave the restaurant.)

Jayden – “I remember writing someone about shooting that scene, but…”

********* – “Whatever, you write your shit and then deny it to my face…”

Jayden – “No, I’m trying to talk to you to figure it out…”

(She puts her sunglasses on and heads for the door.)

Jayden – (to Ivan) “Wow… High school!”

********* – (From the doorway, as she’s exiting) “Yep, that’s right!”

Jayden – “Oh, FUCK OFF!”

After that, Ivan looked just as confused as I was! We were both like, “WHAT?!?!” Seriously though, we have talked about her in the past… and I’ve always said the same thing… she’s hot! So, whatever, it was weird, and we just laughed about it…

But then I got to thinking…

I remember the shoot. It was one of those amateur/reality shoots where we were in public “picking up guys”. Okay, y’all can probably understand this: When you’re shooting PORN in a PUBLIC place, you kind of have to be discreet. We sneak around and get away with what we can… but we can’t draw any extra attention to ourselves… We don’t want to get caught and not be able to shoot. So anyway, I remember this girl and the entire shoot, and I start telling Ivan that we’re shooting and she was just… well… young! If I was dribbling the basketball, she’d run up and slap it out of my hands and the ball would go rolling down the street (yep, she did it more than once!). She also pulled my shorts down while shooting hoops on a public beach. And then, although I forgot what she said, she yelled some things about being “too hot for you” and “we don’t want you anyway” to a bunch of guys playing basketball on a court at the beach… When they hadn’t said a word to us… Never even look our direction! The director even told her at that time that she needed to be quiet and not draw extra attention to our little group. I believe she calmed down after that. Other than that, us 3 girls got along that day and shot great footage!

So I was thinking about what I could’ve possible wrote about her and why she’d be so upset at me… and I did my research! Here’s the EXACT QUOTE (without the names!) of what I said… and the ONLY thing I said:

“I also shot for Fuck Team 5 yesterday with ***** ***** and ********* ****** It was soooo much fun! ***** was awesome, and *********, although very HOT, was a bit annoying! But the whole shoot was fun!”

I can see how one might be a bit offended, but I’ve said some horrible things about shoots with girls and some real nastiness, and saying that someone was a bit annoying is not that bad… and she was with the childish things she was doing that day. It irritated me. (Frankly, I wasn’t the only one that was irritated!)

Anyway, so I thought that the whole ‘situation’ in the sushi place was a bit over the top. There I was, sitting in a booth, trying to ask this girl what she read and where she read it, and she couldn’t even stop throwing her little temper tantrum for 5 minutes and talk to me like an adult. That just goes to show that this ‘opinion’ that I had of her (which wasn’t as bad as she thought!) is true. She’s childish… and it’s annoying…

I very rarely pay attention to what people write or say about me. I don’t care. (Unless, of course, when my ‘mainstream friends’ are getting shit about rumors… But, when you fuck with my friends, you fuck with me! lol) People say BAD things about me and my ‘attitude’ and ‘bitchiness’ and shit… What the fuck ever. I don’t care. Everyone has haters… No matter who you are or what you do, people will hate. I’ve learned to ignore it. But, hearing/seeing/reading some of the shit that I have, it’d be nice to hear something as nice as just being ‘annoying’. lol.

And, to ********* ******, I’m sure this just made everything worse, but whatever. At least I had the opportunity to state what actually happened… you know, since you wouldn’t give me chance to talk to you and set it straight. You’re a very pretty girl, and I see you’re doing great in the biz… Congrats. But you just got on my nerves that day. But, it’s typical… A LOT of people get on my nerves. 

Ugh!!!! Anyway… I’m going to bed. Weird day…

Good Lord, I’ve been BUSY! I’ve been meaning to post a new blog, but being that I’ve been so busy, I feel absolutely exhausted by the time I get home at night and I just want to sleep. Even today, my day off, I was running all over town… and the fact that it’s SO FUCKING HOT, I’m just dying here! lol. Seriously though… it’s 7:30pm and I’ve got my AC on full blast at 72 degrees and I’m still sweating! Ugh! The Valley is HOT!

So… let’s see… what have I been doing… Well, I’ve definitely been shooting A LOT of content. I’m due to officially launch the XXX site on August 1st, so we’re sort of in a scramble, but I’m excited. In the past week or so, I’ve shot a girl/girl, ballerina themed scene with Louisa Lanewood, a girl/girl, CandyLand themed scene with Ava Rose, a boy/girl/girl scene with Dylan Ryder and Johnny Castle, a boy/girl/girl scene with Anthony Rosano and Isis Taylor, a boy/girl/girl scene with Sarah Vandella and Justice Young… and I swear I’ve done more but I can’t remember…

 

 

With all of those content shoots, I also managed to squeeze in a few paid shoots: a boy/girl scene with Van Styles for Vouyer with Jerry, a boy/girl scene for Venom Video with Jenner (Eww… I’ll explain later…), and a goy/girl scene for William H. at Elegant Angel with Anthony Rosano. The scenes for Vouyer and Elegant were HOT… as for Jenner… Oh my God!!! My exact text to Derrick Pierce (who was on set that day shooting), “Doing Jenner was like doing a special ed kid. How does a man that old and in porn not know how to fuck, let alone not understand that consistent taps on the leg means to stop because it doesn’t feel good?!?!?! Hello… Can we say, “No List”! Wow…”  Hahahaha. I felt bad for the guy. He grossed me out. I honestly think that it was because he has a smaller dick than what I’m used to, so in his attempts to ‘open up’ for the camera (which is difficult with an ass my size!), he persisted to fuck me with such a lack of skill… and it was 100 degrees in the studio we were shooting at, and his fat, sweaty body hovering over mine was making me sick! lol. Whatever. I told Regina (the production manager) that I need to pick the guys next time so I can give her a REAL scene. She just laughed and said she felt sorry for me. (By the way, Jenner was a replacement because Alec Knight had cancelled at the last minute. Damnit… now THAT would’ve been a good scene!)

Amidst all of the shooting, I actually cancelled a few scenes due to the obscene amount of drama in my life with my family and with the whole McNabb thing (not having to do with one another). I was under so much stress and just irritated, and I’d rather reschedule and give a GREAT scene, then to be pissed off on set and give a so-so performance. Since I had a few days off, my friend Brando asked me and Phoenix to put together a birthday party/BBQ for our friend Shameless… which he thought would help take my mind of everything else by keeping busy… And it did! We through such a great birthday party… the food was good, the alcohol was flowing, and everyone was happy… Especially with the rainbow penis cake! lol.

Check out my two YouTube videos on the event: ‘Tits… Ass… & Costco‘ & ‘Happy Fucking Birthday, SHAMELESS‘

I also managed to have a couple nights out with some friends. It’s been a LONG time since I’ve gone out with my friends in LA, but everyone knew I was stressed and they just wanted to take care of me. Nothing too exciting happened, but I did manage to get a couple pics…

 

Let’s see… What else is going on in my life…

Oh, so, that guy that I was trying to date but he’s just been ‘too busy’ for me… Okay, he flies around the country ALL THE TIME, is home maybe one or two days a week, and those always happen to be days that I just can’t get out of work! Plus, he’s got a daughter that lives with him, so it’s not like I can just come over and hang out… At least not yet… I don’t know… It’s just been too fucking complicated and I pretty much gave up. Well, we still talk, but I’m not pursuing anything. He’s a nice guy, and I’d rather have him as a friend then not at all. (sounds cheesy, I know! lol.) Anyway, we chatted a little the other day, and he SAYS he wants to see me next week (he’s in San Diego for Comic Con right now)… So, I told him to make it happen because I’m not trying anymore. Straight up. So… we’ll see if he makes an effort… And I’m not putting out! lol. He’s gotta earn it again.

And that’s the exciting love life… or lack thereof!  I haven’t dated much lately because I’ve been focused on work and launching my site. I’m hoping that I can relax by the end of this year. I want to launch my site and be able to take a few months off, relax and enjoy life. So, I’m gonna work my ass of now and hope for the best!

Well, I’m still FUCKING HOT, and I’m kind of sticky with tanning lotion from hitting the tanning salon earlier, so I’m gonna go take a cold shower and hopefully get a girlfriend to go have dinner with…

Enjoy the rest of your weekend, everyone!

Okay, first of all… FUCK OFF!

I have been posting blogs for YEARS, and on this site for a few months now, and I can’t believe that every time I mention something about hanging out with a friend or making a new friend who just so happens to be in the public eye, people FLIP! Is it so unthought-of for a pornstar to be a regular person who is capable of making friends with… *gulp*… a celebrity?!?!?!

Here’s what I think: Okay, the adult film industry is a multi-billion dollar a year industry, so you can’t tell me people don’t like porn. People LOVE porn! However, people only love porn so long as no one else finds out that they love porn (i.e., someone’s significant other, a friend, family member, etc.)… then, they suddenly pretend to be disgusted by it. Believe me, if people were really, truly disgusted by it, we wouldn’t be making billions a year! So don’t tell me only a small percentage of the world population actually likes porn… that’s bullshit.

Also, people love their pornstars! They find that one that they can’t get enough of and they latch on. Don’t get me wrong… I LOVE that. I mean, y’all are what keep my bills paid and I’m very grateful. But, I’ve been through this with BIG TIME with Chuck, a little with ‘Skrape and Jahred, and now Donovan McNabb. The second someone finds out that their favorite pornstar is ‘hanging out’ (or whatever!) with a ‘celebrity’, they suddenly start putting on the ‘porn is disgusting and the girls are whores’ attitude… you know, just in case a loved one is paying attention.  Really, is it so wrong that, like any other ‘normal’ person, a pornstar can bump into a celebrity, be totally chill with the situation, and make a new friend??? That’s been happening to me since before I became ‘Jayden Jaymes’. (Fuck, I met Chuck like 5 years ago… I’ve only been around this industry for just under 3 years! We became friends… as ‘normal’ people!)

So, to anyone that had some sort of problem (or issue or whatever) with a pornstar making new friends… shut the fuck up. Seriously. Someone please tell me what the big fucking deal is??? I don’t get it.

Now I really want to break it down to clear up everything…

McNabb: A (non-pornstar) friend and I went to Vegas during UFC 100. On that Saturday, we went to the Moorea pool at the Mandalay bay where a friend of mine works. And, to clear that up, if y’all have ever been there, there’s like 3 chicks that walk around topless! (I don’t know why a chick would pay to get into a topless pool and not go topless!) While laying there, my friend, being a HUGE Eagles fan, recognizes McNabb. I had no idea who he was. Frankly, I don’t care. Anyway, my friend that works at the pool introduced them after she put her top back on. Shortly after, I PUT MY TOP BACK ON, walked over and said hello. He was with a bunch of friends and they had a cabana. So, me and my friend joined him and his friends in their cabana. And, do to the location of the cabana, which overlooked the ‘beach’ at the hotel, we weren’t allowed to be topless (because kids could see from there). So, we all hung out, WITH OUR CLOTHES ON, had a couple drinks, IN PLAIN SIGHT OF A FEW HUNDRED PEOPLE, and we left before the sun set. Everyone was sticking around to watch the fights from the cabana and we were invited to stay. My girl and I wanted to go shower and whatnot, so we left. And, do to the fact that I wasn’t feeling well and took a nap, my friend joined the group again to watch the fights… then came straight back to the room. Yes, we got a text message from the gang about where the after parties were, but we never went anywhere.

NOTHING HAPPENED. Casual drinks, poolside, amongst hundreds of other people, WITH OUR TOPS ON. Donovan is a married man. He was a friendly guy chatting with everyone, but he wasn’t pursuing girls… just being a nice guy. I like that in people. I like meeting people that don’t put pressure on situations: we were offered drinks by the whole crew, we all had casual conversations… AND THAT’S IT!  And, you know what, he didn’t even know I was a pornstar! I guess one of his friends brought it up AFTER we had left the pool that day! (It’s not something I run around Vegas bragging about.)

And, while I’m on a roll…

Liddell: As I said, I’ve known Chuck for years… since before I ever even thought about doing porn! I literally bumped into him at a club, said it was nice to meet him, he offered me a drink, we had casual conversation and, yes, exchanged numbers. We’ve kept in contact ever since. I’ve had boyfriends, he’s had girlfriends (and a fiance!), and we’ve remained friends. And friends hang out! I’ve got to his town to party, we’ve partied in Vegas, and, of course, the ever-so-famous Cabo trip! Let me just say that Chuck never cheated on his fiance with me. I’d met her before and completely respected their relationship. AFTER THEY SPLIT, everyone just sort of needed to get away. It just so happened to be around the holidays and because I’d been stressed out, fresh out of a relationship and complaining that I needed a vacation, Chuck invited me, ALONG WITH SEVERAL OTHER PEOPLE, to go to Cabo for New Years. We stayed at a rented house with about 15 PEOPLE! We weren’t there alone and, other than one mid-day nap, I don’t believe we ever even passed out in the same bed. I was not there as ‘his girl’… I was there as a friend. And as for the blog that made it all happen… I spoke of Chuck for about 10 seconds. The pics in the end??? Yeah, there were a couple with Chuck… along with other guys, other girls from the trip, and also a bunch of pictures from a completely different trip that I took right after that! I didn’t center anything around that trip or around ‘me and Chuck’. We’ve always been good friends and he’s always been there for me. Sadly, after that fucking trip and all of the retarded rumors, we’ve lost touch a bit, but I still consider him a friend. It was actually great seeing him this last weekend in Vegas. (And, no, nothing happened there, either!)

‘Skrape: There hasn’t been a whole lot about him popping up, but I have seen a couple things. We met in Montreal when I was hosting a UFC pre-party that TapouT was sponsoring. He was nice, made sure everything was taken care of for me, and made the UFC trip a lot of fun for me and my girl friend. We still talk… but we’re JUST FRIENDS. (Although, I will admit… I do have a little crush! But it’s just that.)

 

In conclusion, we all know how the tabloid types operate: They take a small kernel of a fact (cocktails at a pool, vacation in Mexico, etc.) and embellish it to make it seem like something of a big deal.  There was no article that I found about McNabb that said anything ‘happened’, but that’s obviously the message that they’re trying to get across. They make is seem like being in the same location as a pornstar is something to be embarrassed about, and that’s hardly the case! We’re ‘normal’ people, just like you, just going about in our daily lives, living in our own little underground Hollywood. I just can’t believe that people are so ignorant and think that, just because a pornstar was present, everyone was getting blown! Actually, if you must know, I got absolutely NO action in Vegas!

Anyway, those people posting those articles are assholes and it’s not even worth getting upset over. NOTHING in my blog said anything bad about the situation with Donovan or even hinted at any sort of infidelity. He’s just a nice guy that I had a couple drinks with… along with a BUNCH of other people.  

Get over it.

Ugh! You know, everyone always finishes that line with, “stays in Vegas” or “never happened”, but I can’t even say that about this trip! As much fun as Lynda and I had on our little adventure, it wasn’t quite what I wanted, needed or expected! Overall, I’m actually disappointed! I’m actually going to leave the detail of the irritating drama out, but you’ll enjoy this anyway!

Well, to start off, what was supposed to be a group of four girls got cut down to two. One cancelled, the other took a job (although she’d known about the trip for weeks… yeah, won’t go there, but I was PISSED!)… so I knew from there I wasn’t going to be partying as hard as I needed to! So anyway, Lynda and I drove out late Friday morning, flying up the 15 freeway, making the 200-mile trip in about 3 1/2 hours, making only one pee-stop in Barstow. I had had a rough couple of days (just mentally draining!), so Lynda wanted to take me to this restaurant called Dick’s. There’s one in Texas she used to go to and she had just seen a sign for one at the Excalibur hotel. She told me all about the atmosphere and how they’re all just assholes there, so we went! First thing we ordered: Rum & diet, strawberry daiquiri, and two shots (waiter’s choice!).

 

After chowing down junk food, picking up a good buzz and watching the UFC weigh-ins, we drove to the Venetian to check in. On the way over there, we must have buzzed-dialed everyone in our phone books… and by the time we got into our room, we were texting my buddy Chuck about meeting everyone in his room and heading off to XS at the Encore later. So, we showered, ran around the room naked, got sexed-up, and headed to Planet Hollywood to meet our friends.

After an hour of hanging around the suite, sipping on the Goose and getting tipsy, we  piled into two party buses and took the crew to XS. There, we had two tables and a bunch of girls! Yes, guys were there, too… But I’m more into watching girls dance around drunk! 

 

We danced around, sipped on champagne, and enjoyed the company of a bunch of great people… including Dana White who joined us for a few minutes. It was a good group. However, although Chuck and I are cool, I avoided him throughout the night. Due to all of the ‘rumors’ about us, I wasn’t in the mood to cause more! We’re just friends! We hang out and party like friends do. Plus, with my situation (whatever it may be) with my new guy, I DEFINITELY don’t want any kind of pics popping up… even though they would be innocent!

 

We headed back to our room at about 3:30am and passed out! Both of our phones were going off all morning, until about 6am when everyone else passed out! Sorry… I’m not a party-girl… I was tired by 2am!

We managed to get our asses up, dressed, and out the door by noon that day… grabbed some sandwiches, and proceeded to the Mandalay Bay where my friend runs the topless pool, Moorea. He had a cabana waiting for us along with drinks… so we went! But, before we went, we decided to check out the UFC Expo that was going on. Of course, I used my UFC connections to walk right in… and I immediately wanted to leave! It was PACKED! I get very uncomfortable in big crowds of people, so I was starting to get edgy! However, walking around for the entire 10 minutes we were there, I was stopped at least 10 times and asked for pictures! It’s exciting! Especially the fact that I was in very casual clothes and HUGE sunglasses… it’s cool that I get recognized looking like that, especially when people aren’t even expecting me! It’s very flattering.

But anyway, we headed to the pool, got our cabana, let go of our tops (while getting drooled over by men and glared at by women… Umm… Hello! It’s a TOPLESS pool!)… and we sunbathed for a good hour or so…

 

 

After relaxing for a while, I got a tap on my arm from Lynda, suddenly really excited, saying, “Oh my God! Is that Donovan McNabb?” My reply… “Who?” Hahahaha. Apparently Lynda is a HUGE Eagles fan and noticed him standing right in front of our cabana. So, I asked my friend that runs the show to introduce them… He did… Then I was pulled into the conversation… Then we were soon up in the VIP section, complete with a stripper pole, drinking and partying with Donovan McNabb. By the way, he’s a fucking awesome guy! Lynda was so shy (she was SHAKING! lol), but she relaxed and opened up after a while. But, we chilled and drank in the hot sun for a few hours. And I wish I had a picture for you guys, but, due to his surroundings, obviously, Donovan was opposed to taking pictures. 

At about 4:30, we decided we were tired and wanted to go rest and get cleaned up for the night. Donovan invited us back to the cabana to watch the fight, so we all exchanged numbers and we parted ways. Lynda and I went back to the room, showered and did the girlie thing, but then, by 8pm, she was ready to go and I was just having issues. I don’t know what set me off, but I just started getting overwhelmed and on the verge of having a panic attack or something… so I smoked some weed that I had and tried to relax. Lynda was in a rush to go watch the fights, so I told her to head to Donovan’s and I’d meet her in a bit. Well, whatever was going on in my head was stopped by the weed and I passed out. Lynda called me at 10:30 and said she was on her way back and we’d go out. She had watched the fights with Donovan and his crew, so now I was ready to go!

Sadly, by the time Lynda got back and I got dressed, my ‘weird’ feeling was coming back and I freaked out! I guess I just needed to get out of the room. lol. I don’t really now. I took a stroll down the hall to cool off, went back in and put on my dress, then told Lynda we had to go because I just had to do something. (Weird, I know… But I just get like that sometimes… anxiety, I guess.)

Well, sadly, as pretty as I felt in my new dress and as much as I wanted to party, I ran into someone that I was prepared for, and I really wasn’t prepared for the reaction that I got from the incident, and I not gonna go into details about it, but it set me off! I was pissed! But, what happened was something that I sort of needed to happen… and it wasn’t the best feeling ever! So, my night was officially ruined. Chuck was texting me about his party, Donovan was texting me about his party… Everyone had these parties going on, and all I wanted was to go to bed… and it was only 12:30am! Lynda felt bad for me, so she stayed in the room with me. Of course, text messages were exchanged between this person and I… and although things made sense, it wasn’t what I needed to hear. I’m looking forward to see what becomes of this… and I’ll try to remember to fill y’all in when things resolve. But, overall, my night was ruined, so I smoked a bowl and passed out!

Okay, I’m not a pot head. I almost always have my medical marijuana, but I use it when I can settle my mind so I can sleep… and this is maybe once a week! But I was so irritated by everything, I just never stopped smoking! I woke up and hit the pipe, hit it again after we packed up and were ready to head out to Rehab at the Hard Rock… then I stashed it in the secret compartment in my purse.

Well, we get to the Hard Rock and continue through the VIP/Cabana lines. I got recognized by a few of the workers, so they pushed me right through to the pool. We went through a little security station, and they peeked into our purses and stuff, but we got in with no trouble. (Although, I was worried about the weed in my purse… which was stupid of me to be holding in Vegas anyway since the prescription is only legal in California.) But, we got in and went straight to the water! But, within minutes, Donovan was texting Lynda to meet him outside. He had left his iPod at the cabana after the fights, so she grabbed it for him and he needed it before their flight. So, we walked out and were told we’d be able to re-enter with our wristbands. 

We talked to Donovan for a couple minutes and he was off to catch a flight. We headed back through the doors we exited from, and they needed to look though out bags again. Given that the first inspection wasn’t very thorough, I wasn’t worried… Until this bitch started opening every little compartment in my wallet and fumbling through EVERYTHING!!! Oh shit… she found my weed. She held it up, looked at it, and set it on the table. My words, “Okay, can we just throw that in the bucket (the tray of goodies they were collecting!) and pretend it didn’t come from my bag?” I tossed it in the bucket and she just looked at me and chuckled. She ignored the pipe. At this time, someone was going through Lynda’s bag and picked up her little box of pills she had. Absolutely nothing illegal: Advil, Tylonel, vitamins, things like that. They guy started tell her she either need to trash it or go put it away because she couldn’t take it in. Lynda was just as irritated with the situation as I was (probably more, actually, since her shit was legal!), so she said she’d just go put it away. Well, since we weren’t staying at that hotel, I wasn’t he what her plan was, but I figured we’d just skip out on the whole pool party. So, as I’m about to grab my bag and leave, the bitch decides to take my pipe (which, by the way, is LEGAL to have because it’s for tabacco… as far as they know!). She tosses the pipe in the tray. I made a comment like, “Well, since we’re leaving, you don’t need to take this from me…” and I reached for my pipe. (They could keep the weed… I didn’t want to hold it if they already knew I had it!) The security guy grabbed my arm and told me I couldn’t take it and to leave. I made another smart-ass comment about how it’s a fucking tabacco pipe and I could legally have it (if there wasn’t residue on it! lol). He grabbed my arm, cut off my wristband, though me and Lynda out the door and told not to come back. LMAO! I dug out the VIP manager’s business card from my wallet and seriously thought about calling him, going back in, and shoving it in the bitches face, but then I got smart: I’m so lucky I didn’t just get arrested… I’m leaving!

We ate at the little diner in the Hard Rock and decided to just hit the road. All the while, I’m still VERY upset about the night before and the situation, I was already freaking out because I’d sober up and start thinking crazy shit… and I didn’t want to do that! So, Lynda and I made some phone calls to our friends that we actually on their way to Vegas for a concert tomorrow night… We decided to meet at Primm (the state line, between Cali and Nevada). Lynda knew I was upset, so we went to Buffalo Bills (classy, I know! lol), ordered HUGE drinks, and sat and waited for our friends so they could smoke me out and we could be on our way! (I know… I’m so stupid… but I had the WORST night ever, okay!)

 

 

 

 

Our friend arrived, we hopped in the truck with our drinks, we smoked to calm my crazy ass down (yes, I was freaking out about my night… still!), sat and chatted for a few minutes, then they dropped us off… They headed to Vegas, and we finished our drinks and began the journey home.

The traffic was HORRIBLE, but I was feeling GOOD and, thanks to the help of my friends, I remained calm. Hahahha. By the time we hit Barstow, we both had to pee. So, we made it to Victorville and pulled off the road. I figured we could stop by my parents’ place, pee, and stock up on snacks. I called my mom, but they weren’t home, so she told me to help myself IF I could get into the house… so Lynda and I broke in! We took the screen off the front window and climbed in… because we’re classy like that! LMAO! We peed, help ourselves to freshly baked cupcakes, grabbed some waters, and were on our way.

 

I dropped off Lynda at her place at 8:45pm, and walked through my door at about 9:05… I’m so tired! And, as an update, I’m completely sober right now and I’m okay. Getting out of Vegas helped. I wish I could give you guys all of the dramatic details, but it’s really personal and I need to work things out myself and not make a public fuss… at least until it’s done with! We all cope with stress and emotions differently, and the fact that I needed a wild Vegas weekend to clear my head anyway, then having this sort of drama… NOT COOL! My mind has been on a rampage lately, and I fucking needed to abuse some weed! Hahahha. I was fucking stupid though. I’m so luckily me ass isn’t sitting in a jail cell right now! Fuck….

Well… back to work tomorrow! I’ve got 3 days of content shoots this week, on top of shooting other scenes, so it’s gonna be a long week… Bring it on!!!

xoxo

Happy belated 4th of July!!!

Like most of America, I was busy yesterday doing the whole BBQ thing. Except, for the first time this year, I did it with friends instead of family. My parents decided to go camping (well, in a half a million dollar motorhome!) in Huntington Beach, and my sisters were all working, so I decided to attend a BBQ that I was invited to. I was a little hesitant at first because it was at a popular porn director’s house, but he’s like me: he HATES drama. Plus, it was just a small group of his closest friends and people were actually bringing their kids. And if that sounds funny to anyone, just remember that we are human and it is possible to ‘turn off’ the porn side and be ‘normal’. So, no, there were no boobies or pussy being flashed, no fucking in the pool, no keg stands… just chill.  (I lied about the no boobs part… one of the girls showed me her new boobs… she just got a lift and bigger implants and they look GOOD!)

Let’s see if I can remember everyone that was there: Me (duh!), Tony T., Brett Brando, Scott Nails, Angelina Valentine, Keiran Lee, Puma Swede, Angel Long and her girlfriend, Brynn Tyler, Kimber James, Mya SOMETHING,  and Rick Shameless. It was a small group, but a fun group. We BBQ’d, swam, hung out, BBQ’d again, roasted marshmallows, watched fireworks, and enjoyed a couple cocktails. Believe it or not… I actually drank!!! I had 2 1/2 Patron margaritas! I had actually brought the Patron because it’s been in my freezer for MONTHS and I knew I’d never drink it, so I brought it somewhere where people would!

Here’s a few pics from yesterday. (And, I’m sorry, but I have to blur out the kids’ faces on this one.)

I have to admit that I had so much fun yesterday. I’m definitely not one for hanging out with a bunch of porn people, but everyone was so mellow and just relaxing that I felt relaxed. It’s been a while since I just sat in the sun and cleared my mind of everything!  And what’s sad is that the general public thinks that porn people are just screwed up in the head and we’re completely incapable of doing anything but drink and go on drug binges, but our little group was the complete opposite. I agree, some porn people are really screwed up, but for the most part, we’re regular people. We have families and friends… Porn is just a job… Just like everyone else has a job… We go to work, do what we gotta do, then go home and get on with our lives!

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Anyway… on with my porn life!

I’ve been shooting like CRAZY for my website and we’re planning on launching in August! I’m so excited! Plus, I just shot my highly anticipated first IR (interracial) scene in over 2 years… and it was GREAT! Believe me… I’ll be doing more of those! And as for the anal stuff… I’m still working on it. It HURTS! But, I’m pushing my limits to see what I can give you guys! I want to offer my members things that they can’t get anywhere else, and that would include mainly IR and anal scenes.

I’ve also had a little bit of drama going on with my agent and them screwing up a very important shoot and, of course, putting the blame on me! And the fact that this was not the first time they’ve screwed up, I had to let them go. I’d actually like to explain this one to you so you guys can see what my life is like:

My agency emails me EVERYTHING! It’s a request that I made so that I have documentation of everything. If they have a new booking, it’s emailed. If they’re sending me shoot info, it’s emailed. All of my emails go straight to my BlackBerry, so I can get back to them ASAP and approve everything. Well, about a week before this particular incident, I emailed them telling them not to book me on the 1st or 2nd of July because I was shooting content all day both days. And when I say I’m shooting, that means I’ve put thousands of dollars into a location, my crew, my talent, food, accessories, etc. It’s a BIG and EXPENSIVE day. Anyway, the email that I received back from that was, “Darn, I was trying to book you with Teravision on the 2nd, but I’ll find another day.” So, nothing in regards to the 1st. Anyway, as I was at Magic Mountain on the 30th, we’d been emailing back and forth and again I mentioned that I couldn’t shoot on the 2nd because I was shooting content all day on the 1st AND 2nd. Then I get a disturbing email: “Hunny, you’re booked with Digital Playground on the 1st.” 

EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?!?

How come I didn’t know about this??? How come I don’t have it in either of the two calendars I keep??? How come no one mentioned it when I sent you an email LAST WEEK saying that I need the 1st and 2nd off??? Oh… I was PISSED! Then, they try to tell me that I VERBALLY approved it over a month ago. Umm… I don’t verbally approve ANYTHING… and it’s situations like this that I request everything to be handled via email, so I have proof of everything. I couldn’t find anything about this shoot, and, of course, when I told them originally that I needed the day off, they didn’t say anything about me already being booked! WTF?!?!?! So, I told them I wouldn’t be able to do it because of the big day I had. Plus, being that I’ve shot for this particular director 6 times in the past month, I hoped he wouldn’t take it too harsh. Well, my agency tried to run the guilt trip on me, “This script had a part written around you… They need YOU… blah, blah, blah…” Yeah, I started to feel bad, what what am I supposed to do? Throw away thousands of dollars on MY shoot and let my entire crew down? I don’t think so. 

Of course, I told my agency that they fucked up big time with this shoot and now, thanks to them, this director is gonna be PISSED at me and I’m gonna get a bad rep with the company who I’ve grown to absolutely LOVE over the past month. But, in porn, one fuck up is all it takes! So, in return, my agent tells me that I’m the one that fucked up and I’m making myself look bad! Are you kidding me??? The owner tells me that I was perfectly aware of this shoot and even had a discussion about it with the director the last time they shot me. Ummm… I don’t think so! Don’t you think that I would’ve handled it then if I had known about it?!?! And, if I had known about the shoot all along, WE WOULD NOT BE HAVING THIS CONVERSATION!

Am I right here or what???

So, because they made it such a huge ordeal, I told them to take me off the site… they no longer work for me. Of course, I get a long email from the owner say this and that and they’ve made me this much money, etc., so I in turn wrote back about my complaints on this and that, and that my last check was in the mail for them. I was so irritated that they did that. How dare they try to pin that on me and make me look bad when I have documentation that I needed this day off, and they had NOTHING about me approving that shoot to begin with. I get so pissed off when they do that because you know they’ll never tell the company that they fucked up, they’ll just call and say, “Jayden can’t do the shoot… she double-booked herself and she doesn’t want to cancel the other shoot.” So, I look like the bad guy. I pay them a huge chuck of money and they can’t seem to handle their shit. And this definitely isn’t the first time I’ve gotten into it with them, so I was DONE at that point. And the fact that I had to have these conversations/arguments while with my little brother and sister, standing in lines at a theme park with other families and kids around… I was fed up.

Well, that huge amount of money they made me is actually a huge amount of commission that they made off me… and it’s now gone. Sorry guys. Better luck next time. I’m not a dumb ass and you can’t push me around and make ME look bad. I’m DONE!

Anyway, that was my drama. But, I’m over it. I’ve sent out my emails and text messages to everyone I know telling them that I’m not independent again. Agent or not… I can still pull in a very large monthly income. I’m better without an agent… at least if I fuck up, all there is to blame is myself. There’s no middle man and no covering it up… just me. Yay!

Well, I’m off to enjoy my day off… Lunch with a friend, a movie, mani/pedi, tanning… all the good things in life! Enjoy what’s left of your holiday weekend!

xoxo