Hmm… No response from the jackass from my last post… Oh well! lol.

 

Well, the holidays are DONE!!!!!!! Thank God!!! I love the holidays and all the family time and everything, but I HATE the food!!! There’s way too much eating being done throughout Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I guess it officially starts with all of the damn Halloween candy! Geez! I’m DONE with it!!! Gotta go back home to where there’s no food in the house! There’s a reason I don’t go grocery shopping… I don’t need to eat a bunch of JUNK! When you’re bored, you eat. So, if I’m sitting at home and get bored/hungry, I purposely don’t have snack foods! Gotta get back on track!

I’m still at my parents’ house, debating on what time I should hit the road. It’s a good two hour drive home, but I’m sure there will be PLENTY of holiday traffic! And frankly, my dog’s been eating a lot of leftovers and I really don’t want to be stuck in the car for 4 hours in traffic, smelling her farts the whole way home! No thank you! lol. As bad as I want to get home, I think I’ll wait it out until tonight… and try to not snack on all the cookies and shit that are in this house!!! Grrrrr!!!! Hahaahahah!!!

Anyway, exciting news: Little Miss Phoenix Marie and I have decided that we both desperately need a little mini-vacation to clear our minds and get out of the stress of work and LA, so we’ve booked a room in Las Vegas for the celebration of the incoming of 2010… New Year’s Fuckin’ Eve in VEGAS!!!!!!! Have you guys ever seen ‘The Hangover’… Oh, yeah… I plan on US being THEM! lol. We’re both not big drinkers, but we’ve decided to let the guards down COMPLETELY and enjoy ourselves to the fucking max. We’ve got our room from the 30th until the 3rd and I highly doubt we’ll be spending much time in there! I’m so fucking excited, y’all have no idea!!! I keep texting her about it. I’m just so long overdue for some space to let myself go and forget about everything in my life. The dog’s all booked at the daycare, the bills are paid, and I’m ready!!!!!! I’ve called all of my Vegas friends (locals, club promoters, fighters, etc…. Hey, it’s UFC 108, too! My fighter friends will be there!!! Yay!!!!) and we’re all set to get HOOKED UP wherever we want to go! Yippie!!!!!

Hahahahahaha…

And that’s not the only Vegas trip we’ve got planned… Don’t forget about the Adult Entertainment Convention coming up the 7th through the 10th! I’ll be back home in LA for 48 hours before me and my girlfriend/makeup artist Lynda take off to Vegas on the 6th to settle in my room for the LONG but FUN weekend of meeting fans, doing signings, interviews, and kicking up my feet in pain from my heels at the end of every day! lol. And the awards show is Saturday night! Yay!!! As much as the rumors fly about the negative politics of the AVNs, I am up for 4 awards: Best Tease Performance (Curvy Girls 4, Elegant Angel), Best All Girl Three Way (Sweet Cheeks 11, Anabolic), Best Orgy Scene (2040, Wicked) and Best New Web Starlet (www.JaydenJaymesXXX.com). Do I think I’ll win any? Yeah… The Best Orgy Scene, and only because Wicked spends lots of money through AVN. lol. But honestly, I don’t think it’s something that ALL OF US will go up and accept, so I’ll stay in my seat more than likely! However, it is nice to receive a nomination because of my personal website! Makes me feel like some of my hard work has been recognized. And also, with that tease scene, I was happy with the nomination. Sam No said to me right after we shot all of it: “That was the HOTTEST tease I’ve ever shot!” I texted her right after I saw that nom and she was just as excited as I was! Yay!!! Who knows… Maybe, magically, I’ll win something.

Well, I’m gonna get back to my family and the last couple of hours hanging out with them before I head back home. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and I hope the everyone has a fun/safe/wild/crazy/EVERYTHING new year!!! We’ll have cameras with us in Vegas, so I’ll definitely be posting pictures! Hehehehe.

 

I love the praise I get for my blog, especially from industry professionals. And I LOVE reading comments and seeing the outsider opinions, good, bad, positive and negative. However, my all time FAVORITE comments are those like the following that was just posted:

“I can’t believe you deleted my last post, you whore. 

I’ll give you some worldy advice. You’re pretty fucking fat and i’d say your time in porn is fairly limited ‘cos the minute you get to late-20’s you’ll be WAY too fat, you’ll have a pussy like a wizard’s sleeve and there’ll be a younger, thinner video-prostitute to take your place.

Oh, and you’re family are all ASHAMED of you. You dirty, worthless WHORE.

Stop whining like above and get some self respect and a proper fucking job.”

LMFAO!!!

First off, this guy is crying over the fact that I deleted his first comment, which is just fucking hilarious! Considering I’m such a “worthless whore”, this guy is pretty damn concerned about the fact that I think his comments are pretty worthless, and actually CAME BACK and looked at my site AGAIN and did enough research to find that I didn’t post his comment! Wow… can we say “obsession”?! lol.

I usually don’t give people like this any attention because it’s just that… they want attention… attention from a “worthless whore”! Hahahahaah! Normally, when someone truly thinks so low of someone, they completely ignore them. Obviously, I’ve become a fascination to this person and it’s quite intriguing! I get a total kick out of it because I KNOW this guy is not only concerned with what I think of him, but he’s totally Google-ing me (you know, to look at my ‘fat’ body) and checking out every single aspect of porn that I’ve ever been involved with.

Again… LMFAO!!!

Dude, if you’re so engulfed with, wrapped up in, and concerned with a “worthless whore”, YOU might want to rethink YOUR life and stop obsessing about mine. That goes to anyone who has anything negative to say. No one’s forcing you to read my blog or watch my scenes. If you don’t like it/me, move on with your life! Geez! (And I’M labeled as the stupid one… Ha!)

On a serious note… My fans mean a lot to me. Obviously, y’all are the ones that keep me working. However, as much as I like to let everyone in on some of the daily ins and outs, highs and lows of the business and let you in on some aspects of my personal life, you guys only see what I let you. There’s obviously a great deal of me, mind, body and soul, that you guys don’t see… That a lot of people don’t see… This (porn, my site, my blog, etc.) is just a peace of me that I’ll someday outgrow and it will become nonexistent in my daily activities. Although porn will always be a small part of my life that some people will never look past nor let me move on from, I am not ashamed of my life or my decisions, nor is my family, and I know (and those who know me personally know) who I am inside and as a person and I don’t need the approval of anyone to justify anything.

Anyway, I’m leaving tomorrow and heading to my parents’ place for the rest of the week to celebrate the holiday. We’re a very close family and I’m looking forward to yet another fabulous holiday with the family. I hope everyone has a great holiday.

 

I wasn’t going to blog about this because so many people asked me not to because of the so-called ‘stature’ of this company, but I’m Jayden Jaymes… I don’t give a FUCK! lol. But seriously, I got an email from my old agent, Derek, at LA Direct Models that has totally persuaded me to let it be known.

First off, just so everyone knows, I HATE Derek very much. He was my agent for only a year. I think he’s the meanest, most heartless, rudest, biggest douche in this industry. Seriously, I was screaming at this person on the phone in the middle of the Dallas airport, going off about how he has such a horrible soul. He’s just not a nice guy. Well, I suppose he COULD be outside of the adult industry, and I understand that he puts up with a bunch of air-headed, drug addicted whores every single day and that can make you crazy, but I don’t think he realized that I had a brain when I signed up with his agency a couple years ago. He makes these poor girls believe that he owns them, he threatens them with work and money, and he’s not honest. You would never understand the amount of times I’ve heard from girls, “I work for Derek.” or “I don’t want Derek to fire me.” or whatever. Ummm, hello?!?!?! Bitch, who pays who here??? YOU pay HIM right??? HE works for YOU!!! He’s an agent, he handles your bookings and that’s it! It goes to show you how stupid girls are and how persuasive he can be. But anyway, I never put up with that… and I wouldn’t doubt if I was the only girl ever to yell that at him in his office.

Moving on…

Yesterday, I was supposed to shoot for Vivid. My call time was 3:00pm and I was shooting a boy/girl/girl scene with Mick Blue and Vivid’s newest contract girl Lia. After reading through all of my shoot information and scanning the script, the wardrobe that I was told to bring didn’t really match up with the script, so I texted the director to see if he had anything specific in mind. He gave me some ideas, then said, “You also need to do a strip tease for mobile and you can’t wear thongs for that.” Exactly what went through my head: “Wait! I’m getting paid $300 less than my usually rate and now they want me to do more work for them?!?!?” 

Remember when I had a huge problem with The Erotic Networks and them wanting to shoot all kinds of content and not compensate me for it? Well, it’s just about the same deal here. With most of these big companies your day is pretty much this: Hair/Makeup, Pretty-Girl Stills, Dialogue, Hardcore/Softcore Stills, Hardcore Scene, Softcore Scene, the Popshot and then you go home. It’s the same with shooting for a company like Brazzers, minus the softcore. Companies will either have a script and do a bunch of dialogue, or they’ll shoot a tease (i.e. rub oil all over your tits and ass and tease the camera for a few minutes) and get right into the sex. So, not only was I supposed to do all this normal stuff for Vivid for less than my usual rate (which, I’ll admit, is still a little higher than most girls), but they now wanted me to shoot a 15 minute strip tease, too! Not only that, for a MOBILE APPLICATION… It wasn’t even part of the scene! It’s for a totally different thing!!! HELL NO!!!

I got right on the phone with my agent and explained the situation. I guess when he called the production manager, he said he had no idea what I was talking about as far as the mobile app thing and the tease was for the beginning of the DVD. Ha! Yeah, right! It took a few phone calls, but I guess they finally admitted it was for a mobile application.

I know it sounds silly, and most people would probably think, ‘why wouldn’t you just shut up and do it! You’re getting naked anyway, just suck it up and do the strip tease for 15 minutes and get over it!’. My problem was that Vivid was not only unable to pay me my full rate so they were already low-balling me, but now they were trying to squeeze in more content, not pay me for it, but make money off of it themselves. I understand that the state of the economy is bad and everyone is hurting, but I have to draw the line somewhere. I know that Vivid is fully capable of paying my full rate (it was only an additional $300!), so when they tried to pull that, I was pissed. All I wanted was an additional $100. I know that it’s just $100 and probably not worth the whole situation, but it’s the principle of it. Too many people are trying to get freebies from girls and, sadly, most girls, once on set, would be too afraid to say anything because (*sarcastic gasp*) IT’S VIVID, so they do it anyway.

Well, Vivid ended up canceling my scene. The production manager first told my agent, ‘She doesn’t have to do it if she doesn’t want to’, but then turned around and just didn’t want me there. Oh, and then someone actually brought up my blog and didn’t want me to go and talk about them. OMG! I’m sorry, but I say this to everyone who gets mad over my blog… DON’T DO ANYTHING THAT’S GONNA GET YOU IN IT! Be straight up with me and don’t piss me off. I just told my agent last night: Those who get mad at my blog are getting mad because it’s true and now they’re exposed! Though shit!

I’ve said this before, but I really wish other girls would learn to stand up for themselves and use their brains and only do what their agent has explained to them as far as their scene goes. ANYTHING outside the norm should not be done without greater compensation. Instead, girls are too fucking stupid and scared, then the bitch Jayden Jaymes comes to set and suddenly all hell breaks loose and my label as a fucking cunt grows… all because I know what’s right and what’s wrong!

I don’t come on her and rant about companies because I want to piss people off and be completely blackballed from this business. I do it because it needs to be exposed to others within the industry so they can see what’s going on!

That being said, back to the whole Derek thing…

As much as Derek and I have had our issues in the past, it put a BIG smile on my face to receive the following email from him this morning, actually backing me up! For a man like Derek to side with me in a situation like this, I again feel like I’m doing something right. Here’s what he had to say:

“Jayden

Whatever differences we have between each other – please set them aside for a moment,

Twice now – it has come to my attention that you have had issues on set where producers have asked you to shoot additional content for no compensation, and you have refused, and then made the issues public,

The Erotic Networks and now Vivid,

In both cases we at Direct Models learned of this – thanks to your whistle blowing and on both occasions we were not previously aware of it,

In the first case – this has now resulted in our models being compensated fairly for the work that is being asked of them from Erotic Networks.

 In the second I don’t know what the outcome will be - since I am only told now, that Vivid has been asking models for several months to shoot mobile content, something they had never told us – (nor had any model).  So this will be discussed in the next few days,

I don’t know whether other models just don’t understand they should only do what they have been booked for, or lack the chutzpah to blow the whistle when they are coerced to do so.

Whichever it is – you are right to do so – and I wanted to tell you so.

So thanks for doing it because it benefits all models and agents to know when this is taking place,

Regards,

Derek”

I know that Derek or someone from his office is going to read this and probably be a little hurt that I put everything on blast, but I felt a great need to do so. Derek and I do not get along, obviously. But, in such a situation, it felt so good to hear that I’m in the right from someone I have such issues with. And also, hopefully other girls read this and Derek’s email to me and it somehow triggers something in their little brains and they start standing up for themselves. That’s the whole point behind me putting companies on blast like that! IT’S NOT FAIR!!!

On another note, I don’t think badly of Vivid (or the Erotic Networks, or any company that has tried to pull something like this). Everyone screws up. I just hope that it’s something that is not used against me, or even used against them. But, it is something that needs to be handled correctly and fixed! I had never shot for Vivid before and I was actually a little excited to go to set and prove to everyone that I’m not the big bitch that they’ve all heard about, but, as luck would have it, something happens and that strong side of me comes up and I have to handle the situation properly. Apparently the production managed already told my agent that he’d re-book me for a movie early next year and get me my full rate… I hope so… I think that having a good day on set for Vivid would mend the situation for both of us.

Anyway, that’s the latest drama. Ready for some positive stuff now??? lol. I went to dinner with Jew Hefner last night, who’s been in the business (behind the scenes) for YEARS now, and he has just partnered up with my agent and now he has to deal with me DAILY! Hahahah! Just kidding! Anyway, I hadn’t seen him in a long time, and after yesterday’s drama, we decided to met for dinner. We had some great chicken marsala at Buca de Beppo in Encino, then went to the Sherman Oaks Galleria to see Avatar, where we ran into Sophie Dee and her man Lee. To our surprise, we were all seeing the same movie! But, they got their tickets far enough in advance to reserve the good seats, while Jew and I were in the second row, all to way to the right of the screen. Regardless, it was an AMAZING movie! SciFi movie of the year, for sure! I absolutely LOVED it!!! Afterward, Jew kept talking about my blog so I told him I’d mention him so he’d stop feeling left out. lol. Maybe this just made his day! Hahahahahahaha! He’s my favorite Jew!

Well, now that it’s noon on a Sunday, I need to get my ass in the shower! I’ve got a housewarming/Xmas party to attend at my friends Mai and Oren’s house. I’m so excited! They actually shoot some of my website content for me (the more glamour-y stuff), but I haven’t seen either of them in a few weeks. I’m sooooooo ready for some good food (they’re both great chefs!) and lots of wine! Heheheheh.

Have a great afternoon everyone!!!

 

Pet peeve of the day:

Every time I post something on myspace or twitter about hanging out with my family, my sisters, my nephew, my brother, etc., I always get a few douche-bags that say shit like, “Do your parents watch your porn?” “Does your brother watch you and jerk off to you?” “Do you and your sister get it on?”

Are you fucking kidding me??? I’m sorry, I may do porn, but these people that say this shit are far more fucked up than I am! Do you fuck your sister??? Do your parents watch you have sex??? NO! So why the hell would you think shit like that goes on in my family??? What I do is a JOB and that’s all… I go home and I get on with my NORMAL life!!! I’m fully capable of shutting off ‘Jayden Jaymes’ and just being me. I can enjoy dinner with my family and not talk about work or sex. We’re regular, everyday people. I just don’t get it… Not everyone is as fucked in the head as these fudge-packers that are so indecent as to even think of this shit! It’s fucking disgusting!

It also kinda reminds me of when there were rumors about me and a certain UFC fighter and also about me and a certain NFL QB… People were saying the most retarded comments like, “How could you date a girl that takes 10 big, black dicks at a time everyday?”

LMFAO!!! Seriously??? Okay, first, before you start talking shit, do a little research. I’d LOVE to see this scene with me apparently taking on 10 dudes at once! And second… again, you are more fucked up that I am just for the fact that you even know that kind of porn exists because apparently YOU’RE the one watching it! That’s some kinky shit… Shit that I’ve never done… Not even close to!

I just find it very funny how quick some people are to judge others. I think that someone so judgmental and closed minded has far more of a bad soul than someone like me who lives there life day to day, enjoying themselves, being happy, meeting (and not judging!) new people, doing charity work, spending time with family as often as possible, and who just so happens to get paid to participate in adult films.

I spent the majority of my Saturday morning and afternoon at my girlfriend Lynda’s place, borrowing her over to bake a couple pies for some friends at a local fire house. Since my oven is broken (I have no idea what’s up, but it’s too hot! I burned a pie that takes 50 minutes to bake in 10 minutes!!!) and I had promised a special treat, I took over Lynda’s kitchen.

I brought my dog with my over there so she could see her little doggie boyfriend, Tito. (He’s a Chihuahua… My girl’s a Pitt!) They played all day and fought over a little unicorn toy, and I managed to bake two chocolate chip cookie dough cheesecakes that I delivered to a Studio City fire house with Ivan when we dropped off all of the donations that we collected the other night during our charity event. All of the sexy firefighters LOVED the pies and were so very grateful for all of the donations!

Back to Lynda’s house… While have a little girl talk, Lynda received a phone call from an old friend… Long story short, this friend had two GOOD tickets to the Raiders games that were going to go to waste, so Lynda jumped on the opportunity to take them off her hands! Me, not being the biggest football fan, told her to go ahead and invite someone else that would appreciate it more, but I guess everyone else was busy because I was invited! Spontaneous road trip to Oakland, anyone???

So the plan was for me to go home, pack a little overnight bag, take my dog to the doggie day care people, make my delivery of goods to the fire house, spend the night at Lynda’s, and be out of the house EARLY to get to the game, then head home afterwards.

Well, after running around with chores, and then having dinner with Ivan after dropping off the donations and Lynda watch the UFC fights at a friend’s house, we met back and her place and were both far from tired. So… what else were we to do… We hit the road… Stopping for some caffeine, of course!

 

The drive up to Oakland seemed to take FOREVER!!! But, it was indeed 5 hours! We pulled into a Marriott hotel at about 4:30am, got a room so we could sleep for a few hours, and were up at 11am.

Kickoff was at 1:05, I believe, and we walked in just as the game started. Our seats were GREAT! We were behind one of the goal posts, six rows back. GREAT view! 

 

 

 

 

 

I had never been to a football game before this, and I had heard that the Raiders fans were among the craziest, but I had a great time! I will say this though: I don’t get why people get all up in each others faces, screaming that their team is better than the other. Who cares?! Yeah, cool, pick a team, learn it, live it, love it. But everyone is entitled to their opinion… There’s no need to fight because someone doesn’t see it the way you do! lol. Crazy people! 

And the major downside of the day: RAIN!!! I can handle a little rain… but it was SO COLD up there in Oakland!!! OMG!!! Our jeans were SOAKED and our toes were so numb!!! I was enjoying the live action, but I was MISERABLE!!!

Oh, and while at the game, I got a text from my party promoter guy in Canada and he wants to bring me out to host an event next month! Yay!!! However, he was looking to get one of my friends as well, which is cool, but one of my mainstream friends that I’ve already had some drama with (because people think we’re dating but we’re not and we’re just friends, etc.). I wanna do the party… And I know this person would love to do the party… But I don’t know if it’s gonna happen for BOTH OF US! But I’ll keep you posted!

Anyway, after the game, we hit up a local BBQ restaurant to get some food and, yes, watch ANOTHER football game! lol. Lynda is a HUGE Eagles fan (hence the past drama of us meeting her fav QB in Vegas! LMAO!!!) The food at this place was AMAZING!!! Down-home cookin’ – BBQ, cornbread, potatoes, greens, coleslaw.. OH MY GOD!!! Even worse, we had dessert!!! But it was too good to pass up! And after eating, we headed in to the lounge area of the restaurant to finish the game. We got lucky with this place… the lounge had couches!!! I slept a little and Lynda watched the game.

We headed home around 8:30 and, after dropping Lynda off at home, I was in bed by 2am. 

I was up at 9am this morning for a doctor appointment and to run a couple errands. And tomorrow I’m off to Oakland, again, but this time I’m flying! I’ll be shooting for Kink.com for the first time ever. I’m actually quite nervous! I’m not a fan out being tied up, but we’re just shooting some solo stuff and they said it’s nothing extravagant. Thank God! I’m okay with a little bondage, but I don’t like any pain infliction. Plus, I’m claustrophobic, so ropes and gags make me freak out a little. They’ve assured me that I’ll be in complete control so I’m feeling a little better about it. It’ll be a good experience… and I’ll let you know how it goes!

 

Here’s a couple choice pics from the charity event/toy drive the other night:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

For more pics, visit HERE.

And thanks again to everyone that came out to join us, and and even bigger thank you to those that donated!!!

I’m on a freakin’ roll with all of the charity that I’ve been doing this holiday season!!! But, after the funk that I was in and my goal to start guiding myself in order to better myself, I needed to put my focus into something other than just sex! And what better way than to collect toys and nonperishable foods for the children and families in need?!?!?

Last night I hosted a party at Clear in Studio City with my goofy partner in crime, Ivan, and one of my business partners, Jesse. I mentioned to Ivan a couple months ago that I wanted to a charity drive with him, then the one came up at the bowling alley, too. So anyway, the three of us did what we do best and promoted this party like crazy! No hiring of any PR guys (who, frankly, are a fucking joke in this business if you ask me!), no mainstream anything… Just us telling people! And the word spread like fire!!! We had an amazing turnout of porn girls, other industry faces, photographers, and an amazing amount of supportive fans and other civilians. I’d say that 90% of the people that walked through that door had toys or canned goods in their hands!

I’m sorry… It’s totally eating me up inside… Back to the PR guy thing: It’s not in any way, shape, or form a difficult process to have a story put up on any site in this busniess. AVN, XBIZ, TheFloatingWorld, LukeIsBack, whatever be your fancy. If you can’t throw together a couple complete sentences about whatever it is that you’re doing/want to promote and email it to these people yourself… You know, I was gonna say something else, but fuck it… You fucking belong in this business! Go piss away $1000 a month to have some guy write a few phrases about you… Then get your ass up on the bar and fuck a chick in front of everyone like the classless whores that were at my party last night! That $1000 you’re handing out is $1000 less in blow that you’re shoving up your nose.

(Hell, I’m gonna get PLENTY of press of just that one paragraph right there… More than any girl’s gotten from paying a ‘PR Guy’ to do it for her!)

Anyway, back to my party… So, yeah… There were girls getting naked and totally muff-diving on the bar top! WOW!!! I don’t know one of there names, but we’ll just call her Blondie. But the other… No surprise here… was Elena Heiress. I’ve met Elena a few times, and she’s a super nice girl… But she’s got a little addiction to attention. That girl runs around everywhere with her clothes off, grabbing on dudes and chicks, making out with random people… and sucking on random clits on top of bars for EVERYONE to see, take pictures of, and videotape… for FREE! Granted, this is the same girl that I worked with a while back in Miami that I was told “has a very particular ‘yes list’ and doesn’t work with just anyone!” So… You won’t do one guy because you fear he might be dirty because you don’t know his home life… Bitch! You’re contracting herpe-gono-syphil-aids on the fucking bar RIGHT NOW! LMFAO!!!!! I just don’t get it. (But hey… Ivan managed to get A LOT of it on video and you best believe I will be using it!)

Everyone was looking back at me, while I’m sitting in a corner in my Ugg boots and trucker hat, texting and chewing on a fucking straw, giving me the head nod and a thumbs up: Jayden Jaymes sure knows how to throw a party!!! It was all good, I guess… some of my friends, like some guys from SubNoize Records, had never quite been to a party like this one! Hell, even one of my good friends got a blowjob in the bathroom! High-fucking-five, bro!

You know, for the most part, I love my job. But I ask this all the time and everyone that knows me can vouch for it, but when did this ‘job’ stop being a ‘job’ and become THIS??? I was saying last night, “It’s one thing to earn a living by having sex on camera… But, when you’re in public, have a little bit of self control and some class!” Have a drink, makeout with your girlfriend, cool… But fucking a chick on a bar… OMG!!! It’s disgusting! No one, no matter what industry you’re in, on one likes to take work home with them. It’s not healthy. Apparently porn girls missed the memo! Oh wait… What am I talking about… They’re porn girls… THEY DON’T KNOW ANY BETTER! Shit, I always forget! I always think that they’re the whores on my turf… When really I’m the brains on their turf!

Oh… I also saw a few people (i.e. agents!) try to sneak some girls into the club last night an get thrown out because of no ID or a bad fake ID… I’ve got nothing to say to that but: HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! Seriously, it’s a CLUB that serves ALCOHOL! Let’s all use our brains (hell, if all of them put theirs together, they might equal one): YOU’RE GONNA NEED ID!!!!!!! 

Overall, it was a great night and it kept me very much entertained! And the fact that little cutie Gia Jordan approached me and gave me praises about my blog and told me how much some others at AVN love my blog, it gives me the strength to lay it on think again. To people that are ‘normal’, it makes sense. I state the facts and make fun of all the bullshit. Those that are getting offended are the ones that fit right into my sleeze-stories! What the fuck to I care what people think anymore??? Remember all the publicity bullshit I was talking about… I get plenty of it doing what I do best! Heheheheheheheh!

On to more positive stuff… I don’t have any pictures yet, other than the couple I took with my cell phone, but I’m sure I’ll be getting an insane amount of pictures over the next couple of days as the photographers upload all of theirs and I will be posting them for you!!! Also, Ivan and I will be taking all of our collected goods to a local fire house (one that a friend of mine works at), and I plan on baking the boys a cake and delivering everything in a sexy Santa suit! Don’t worry… I’ll film it all!!! See… I can do charity work and be a little sexy at the same time!!!

Oh… and Merry Christmas everyone!!! (Watch out for this guy sneaking into your house on Christmas Eve!!!

Wow… So, Thanksgiving came and went… Over a month went by with no blog update… I can’t believe it! It went FAST! But, in my defense, I’ve got a good excuse! lol.

 

I spent the past few weeks focusing on ME… And not ‘me’ as in Jayden Jaymes, but ‘me’ as in who I am on the inside… Who I want to be… What I want out of life… And what I need to do in order to make my dreams come true.  From what I’ve been hearing from everyone I’ve been venting to, everyone goes through this! It’s just a process in life where we sit back and readjust our goals, short term and long term and really think about life.

 

I don’t know what brought it all on, but I  showed up at my girlfriend Lynda’s house one night. She had invited me to go out with a couple friends of hers from London who were visiting just for the weekend. When I got to her house, she was still getting ready and I just sat on her toilet and watched her. I was quiet. But, as soon as she asked me if I was okay, I broke down in tears. I guess I was due for a good cry because one thing lead to another and I vented about EVERYTHING.

 

Since that night, I’ve been picking apart EVERY SINGLE ASPECT of my life, putting focus into areas that need work, letting go of things that weren’t good for me, etc. And, in the last month or so, I went from feeling so depressed about my life to, right now, feeling very positive about my future…

 

As much as I’ve contemplated posting really personal issues about my life and the positives and negatives, I am only human. As I said, we ALL go through times like these… And who am I… Jayden fucking Jaymes… to try to sugar-coat something??? Ha! That’s not me! So, what’s been bothering me??? Lots of things, but number one:

 

‘Relationships’. No, I’m not in one… I’m in a few! (Or, I was!) And it’s not seeing/dating/hanging out with multiple guys that was the problem… But I was seeing/dating/hanging out with guys that weren’t necessarily available. I got caught up with an ex I was sleeping with who’s girlfriend found out she was pregnant… I was totally falling in love with a guy that I hardly knew that was dealing with a jealous baby-mama… I straight up told a guy that I didn’t care about his home situation and that since he was on the road 75% of the time we could spend all of that time together and he could do the family thing when he was home… WTF?!?! Who does shit like that!

 

Basically, I got to thinking that I’ve become ‘that girl’ in those conversations that you hear about some girl’s husband sleeping with some 23-year-old skank that knew that he had a family, etc. I’m the other woman! I don’t want to be the other woman… I don’t want to be ‘that girl’!!!! That’s not something/someone that you aspire to do/be when you’re a little girl! Little girls dream of meeting a guy, falling in love, getting married, having babies and growing old with a man. I’m not saying that I necessarily want or don’t want that, but, if I do eventually decide that I want all that, I’m definitely not putting myself in the right position to have that option later!

 

My other issues include work in porn, friendships, my future business plans… And EVERYTHING. It’s just a process of evaluation and bettering myself.

 

I’ve let go of a lot of friendships and relationships in my life that bring on too much negative energy… I’ve been spending a lot of time sorting through ideas and goals for my future and what I need to do to achieve those goals. I’ve just been surrounding myself with positive influences in order to better myself. It’s been too long since I’ve focused on who I really am and what I want. It takes time to readjust yourself, but I feel a lot more positive lately.

 

Speaking of being positive, being that it’s the holiday season, I had called a friend of mine, Steve, and told him that I wanted to host a charity event for children. I LOVE kids so much, and I hope to have lots one day, so I figured asking for toy donations would be a good thing for me. Steve said that, so long as I got people there, he’d take care of everything else. So, I got my girl friend Nikki Benz to co-host with me, and also asked my old friend Seth “Shifty” Binzer to help promote and make an appearance.

 

The event was held at Lucky Strike in Hollywood on December 4th… and it had an AMAZING turnout!!! We had the LARGEST pile of the biggest variety of toys I’ve ever seen! I mean, we could’ve stocked the isles in Target with all of these toys! I’m so upset that I didn’t get a picture of all of them, but take my word for it… It was CRAZY!

 

Other hosts/guests included Heather Chadwell (Rock of Love), Mary Carey (Porn star, Celeb Rehab), Bridgetta Tomarchio (Victoria Secret Model, Dancer), Paula LaBaredas (actress), Danny Trejo (actor), Alexis Amore (porn star) and many others…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Also, as a HUGE surprise to us, Nikki and I and a couple of the other hosts received INSANE gift bags as a thank you. These bags were worth about $3000, and they were full of beauty and health products and a few items of clothing. I never expected to get anything in return for hosting and being so proud of such an event, but I will admit that it was nice to be rewarded for hard work.

 

So anyway… I’m moving on with my life and really looking forward to Christmas coming up and spending the time with my family, who I’m so close with. I hope everyone is have a great holiday season and I PROMISE that my blog will be updated more often now that I’ve got personal demons out of my way!